She never lost her head,Even when she was giving head,She says,Hey babe,Take a walk on the wild side

Feb 24, 2005 22:39

WED
cleaned like whoa from 10-3

**REMINDER TO EVERYONE**
last ngith at jesses i thought of a damn good idea. everytime we drink beer or soda we shoudl take the caps off and collect them. i think im gonna get a lil jug, and when its full and well over a thousand or somehting, we shoudl send them to cancer associations or something. SO PLEASE COLLECT YOUR CAPS!! its for a good cause and it will make you feel so much better that your helping poeple and a amazing cause, YAY!

THURSDAY
smoked. went to crcle were my mom works and got yelled at being being stoned, wuts new. i went to donnas. we smoked a phat joint, like whoa nelly. thorughout the day we smoekd 2 more. i chileld there. alex showed up fro alil. i pretty much gave him the cold shoulder n ignored him all the time i saw him that day. he called me seeing if i was okay, i told him i was mad at him and that i coudlnt tlak there. he was on the way to ym hsoue to put our new washer in. donna n toby tried smoking me up with a phat blunt before i left but i didnt wanna delay talking to alex, so i left got gas n went home. then we left at the same time. we parked up the hill to finally talk. i got everything EVERYTHING off my chest. i didnt hold back at all. it was nice talking. he wouldnt stop holding my hand and grabbing my leg. he woudlnt stop saying sorry and we actually had a long in depth convo about gina and me and their and our relationship.i said how weve bene hooking up on and off for alil over a yr and hes been with gina for 2 years, and how wrong that is.he kept on giving me compliments and holding me.we were in my truck and the windows steemed up. he kept leaning in to kiss me, i kept pulling away. i got sucked in. we made out for awhile. then he lowereed our seats and that was that. i kept saying that he should go, but i stoppped and went with it. how could something be so wrong that feels so good? maybe its not that wrong. ok it is, but our talk was magnificent. we hooked up in ym granparents truck. o no. o yes. he promised me again were goign to the cheesecake factory, lol. as nice as it is being with him, im done with the dream. well have our friendship, but im ready for a relationship. really ready.
*after i got home and realized i lost my phone. gone.i went from tobys to the gas station to home. its not in my hsoue, or at the gas station, or at tonbys cuz i had it whne i left. whihc means its prob outside someplace, with all my numbers in it. im numberless now. i dont knwo anyones number and it upsets me.i keep loosing and braking my phone. y. i dont mena to. i suck at life. im goign to have to try and figure things out tommrorow. i cant wait for the show. i cant wait to see everyone. cant wait to hug and be around all my lovelys. so much got resolved tonite, yet im lost. tommrorows another day.
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