Feb 13, 2009 22:18
Well, today wasn't such a great day. One of my co-workers at CAC has been laid off. It has really thrown me for a loop. How can someone who put so much heart and soul in what she does be laid off because of "budget cuts". Life is unfair. I know that God has a plan in store for her, something that will be right for her, but right now, in this moment. It feels wrong. Seems that the whole world is made of politics. She will be fine, we all will be.
The rest of my week has been going well, but I always have these thoughts running around inside my mind.
The "what ifs...." I know that no one should live in the past, but it is difficult for me to move ahead when there isn't anything worth looking forward to in the future.
And how does anyone define happiness? Is it love? Friendship? Family? Religion? Success? It is different for all of us, but if someone could just tell me what I am looking for, where it is and what it will take to get it. That would be divine.
The rest of my life is in my hands, but how can I decide what I want to do with my life when I don't know who I am. I feel that there is something inside me that hasn't come out yet, something building up that will change everything. The last piece of my puzzle is missing and I'm stumped at where it could be.
What's the secret?
Whitney
P.S. Happy Single Awareness Day.