the clock is ticking....
so i am sitting here listening to john mayer do a lovely cover to the polices song Message In A Bottle and i am thinking about how i only have a week before i am basically shipped out to dartmouth. it makes me really sad considering that karma is out to get me and when things are starting to go good here haha i have to pack up and leave...literally.
is it wrong to be scared?? i mean who can i honestly talk to about this. the main friends are either so used to going to college or haven't even begun this whole process. and what sucks even further which really breaks me down is the fact that if i transfer out of umass during the second semester i get no finacial aid...how wrong is that? of course i can complain about it until i am on the verge of tears but still, it doesn't make sense to me at all, but then again i am just a student.
i still have no idea who my room mate is, or if i will even have one for that matter. i hate dealing with this schools its like all they care about is that my family keeps sending them ridiculous amounts of money and haha get this when i try to talk to them about changing my schedule or something they are complete jerks. not just you know ehh whatever i don't care about you or your problems. no i am talking about flat out being rude, and of course mother dearest is like well they know what they are doing hahaha ya okay sure they do.
i am just getting frustrated because unlike the rest of kids who are getting ready for their freshmen year of college i am not excited in the least bit. i try so hard to be excited about something other than the soul fact that my parents will be out of my hair but i am stomped.....great way to start college off right???
is it wrong to be scared?? i mean who can i honestly talk to about this. the main friends are either so used to going to college or haven't even begun this whole process. and what sucks even further which really breaks me down is the fact that if i transfer out of umass during the second semester i get no finacial aid...how wrong is that? of course i can complain about it until i am on the verge of tears but still, it doesn't make sense to me at all, but then again i am just a student.
i still have no idea who my room mate is, or if i will even have one for that matter. i hate dealing with this schools its like all they care about is that my family keeps sending them ridiculous amounts of money and haha get this when i try to talk to them about changing my schedule or something they are complete jerks. not just you know ehh whatever i don't care about you or your problems. no i am talking about flat out being rude, and of course mother dearest is like well they know what they are doing hahaha ya okay sure they do.
i am just getting frustrated because unlike the rest of kids who are getting ready for their freshmen year of college i am not excited in the least bit. i try so hard to be excited about something other than the soul fact that my parents will be out of my hair but i am stomped.....great way to start college off right???