i screwed things up
i'm so screwed i think i might of fucked things up with josh and i'm a total mess about it. elaine i talked to him tonight about that one thing and he took it way wrong and stuff and it was just a horrible experience. hey amy, if you read this before brooke's party, please don't let me have any alochol at all. cuz if i do i'm screwed and i'm not willing to to give up what i'd loose just for the chance to get drunk. this whole thing i'm stuck in is such a ness and its pretty stupid but all the same the consequences are serious well at least they are to me. well i hope you read this before we leave saturday and if not i'll be sure let you know when we leave. and one more question will i be the only sober person there?