Slide into my room
Last night was amazing, simply amazing. I drove up to Maine Maritime with Lisa for the double header that happened today. (Girls lost, no surprise. MMA's girls are pretty legit. Boys won by over 20 points!) So of course I spent the evening with Nick.
Now we get there at about 10ish, because somehow despite a kind of slippery rt 166 i cuz off half an hour of time. Nick called me before we got there and left the sweetest voicemail about how its slippery out and that I needed to be safe. I called him back when I had service, then called him again when I was in Bucksport. He told me that if it took less than 30 minutes he would kick my ass. It took me 28 lol. So he seemed really happy to see me. Immediatley wanted a hug and a kiss. He was sweet the entire night, in more ways than one. Simple forehead cheek and neck kisses. Putting his arm around me while we watched Bad Boys 2. Holding my hand when we walked outside and to get Lisa at her cousins room. Telling me how much he loved kissing me. Telling me that I'm beautiful and sexy and that he hasn't been able to stop thinking about me all week. Just all of these sweet things that I didn't expect. I also didn't expect him to kiss me in front of Lisa, which he did do twice.
It makes me want him that much more. And it makes me that much more confused. I don't know what I want so I will just hide behind my "singleness" and just do whatever makes me happy in the moment. I just wish that the timing was right because I know that if it was, we'd be together. There's too much behind those kisses and our talks, and the fact that I can fall out of bed butt ass naked and both of us find it hilarious, to say that we wouldn't be together if the timing was right. But it's not, he's graduating in May and wants to get a job on a ship somewhere and I'm so busy that I can't handle starting a realationship with someone that's not right here. Damn man.
Now we get there at about 10ish, because somehow despite a kind of slippery rt 166 i cuz off half an hour of time. Nick called me before we got there and left the sweetest voicemail about how its slippery out and that I needed to be safe. I called him back when I had service, then called him again when I was in Bucksport. He told me that if it took less than 30 minutes he would kick my ass. It took me 28 lol. So he seemed really happy to see me. Immediatley wanted a hug and a kiss. He was sweet the entire night, in more ways than one. Simple forehead cheek and neck kisses. Putting his arm around me while we watched Bad Boys 2. Holding my hand when we walked outside and to get Lisa at her cousins room. Telling me how much he loved kissing me. Telling me that I'm beautiful and sexy and that he hasn't been able to stop thinking about me all week. Just all of these sweet things that I didn't expect. I also didn't expect him to kiss me in front of Lisa, which he did do twice.
It makes me want him that much more. And it makes me that much more confused. I don't know what I want so I will just hide behind my "singleness" and just do whatever makes me happy in the moment. I just wish that the timing was right because I know that if it was, we'd be together. There's too much behind those kisses and our talks, and the fact that I can fall out of bed butt ass naked and both of us find it hilarious, to say that we wouldn't be together if the timing was right. But it's not, he's graduating in May and wants to get a job on a ship somewhere and I'm so busy that I can't handle starting a realationship with someone that's not right here. Damn man.