Such a Horrible Employee
soooo this is what I do with my day. check my addictions. myspace, facebook and here. and also, today, take tons of pictures of myself because i'm sick of all of my defaults. i know, huge loser. so shoot me. lol
i went to the beach last night when i got out of work. i took away my precious sleep time to go down to the beach to sit and think. i went to kennebunk, or gooch's beach, just for a change of pace, and to conveniently run into officer sager. and, seriously i don't know where i would be without that ocean. it is my savor. it is there that i can relax, i can gather my thoughts, i can cry, i can laugh, i can sing at the top of my lungs without caring who hears.
i was waiting for kevin at one paint and nearly fell asleep, laying in the sand looking at the stars being soothed by the gentle crashing of the waves at the edge of the beach. granted it made me have sand in my hair today causing me to appear like i have a really bad case of dandruff, but that's okay. and really, it was beautiful last night. the water sparkled, in my 20 years of living near the ocean, i never knew, or i guess took the time to notice that fact that pieces of sand glow in the nighttime sky. at the waves come rushing up, and the undertoe pulls it back, parts of the sand glow a green color. it was really cool to watch, and get sucked into. wondering where the next glows would come from.
i've got a lot on my mind. i don't know why, but i care what people think of me, and lately i've just had strong bad vibes. from a lot of people. and i still have the insecure voice in my head telling me that people are ignoring me. it hasn't gone away all summer, though i have been able to ignore it, and make new friends. i shouldnt care what people think. even when they accuse me of being a pothead when i've smoked a total of 5 times since 2006 has started, and the last being in may. and to come from who it came from, gave him no right to say it.
*sigh* oh well. what can you do? just live each day one day at a time right? take the time to smell the roses, look at the moon, and wish on the dandelion balls.
i went to the beach last night when i got out of work. i took away my precious sleep time to go down to the beach to sit and think. i went to kennebunk, or gooch's beach, just for a change of pace, and to conveniently run into officer sager. and, seriously i don't know where i would be without that ocean. it is my savor. it is there that i can relax, i can gather my thoughts, i can cry, i can laugh, i can sing at the top of my lungs without caring who hears.
i was waiting for kevin at one paint and nearly fell asleep, laying in the sand looking at the stars being soothed by the gentle crashing of the waves at the edge of the beach. granted it made me have sand in my hair today causing me to appear like i have a really bad case of dandruff, but that's okay. and really, it was beautiful last night. the water sparkled, in my 20 years of living near the ocean, i never knew, or i guess took the time to notice that fact that pieces of sand glow in the nighttime sky. at the waves come rushing up, and the undertoe pulls it back, parts of the sand glow a green color. it was really cool to watch, and get sucked into. wondering where the next glows would come from.
i've got a lot on my mind. i don't know why, but i care what people think of me, and lately i've just had strong bad vibes. from a lot of people. and i still have the insecure voice in my head telling me that people are ignoring me. it hasn't gone away all summer, though i have been able to ignore it, and make new friends. i shouldnt care what people think. even when they accuse me of being a pothead when i've smoked a total of 5 times since 2006 has started, and the last being in may. and to come from who it came from, gave him no right to say it.
*sigh* oh well. what can you do? just live each day one day at a time right? take the time to smell the roses, look at the moon, and wish on the dandelion balls.