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Ehhh....My father is giving me shit about colledge again. Always the same old shit. If all he can do when he talks to me is bitch, I just wish he wouldn't say anything at all. All his bitching just makes me wanna get away more. I'm just so damn tired of the one thing that I've been looking forward to my whole life, the one thing I've worked my ass off for, the one thing that makes me happy and gives me hope for the future being the one thing that makes me cry every night. I'm tired of crying every night, and I'm tired of the only times that my dad actually talks to me ending with me crying. I'm just so damn tired of crying, dammit. I'm emotionally drained, and I can't afford to be drained with tryouts and everything comming up this month. I don't deserve to be drained, dammit. It's the last quarter of my senior year, getting out of here and going to college should be joyfull, not draining. I've worked hard my whole life, and i'm prepared to have to work even harder in college. Is it too much to ask for an opportunity to make something of myself? That's all I've ever wanted, dammit.