Thoughts

[dancewithelves]

All of my life I always thought that I was copying people and that there was no way I could be looked at as an individual. I guess today is the day that I am realizing that there is no one out there like me. I mean, they are people that are pretty close, like Beth, but even her and I like different music, look for different things in a guy, have

Comments

[bethman420]

i think that are one of the few true individuals that i know. i have never met anyone else like you. of course, you, like everyone else in the world, have picked up certain mannerisms and likings etc from the people around you, thats natural. but unlike most people, you dont do it in order to be accpeted. you do it because you see what other people do, like, etc, and you decide that you like it as well. theres nothing wrong with that. i often feel like i, too, am drifting apart from people. last night i was with jon, cody, and sunshine etc and i felt completely out of place and unwanted. at that moment, id have liked nothing better than to walk away from them and just be alone, i was truely sickened by them, and all people for that matter. i sometimes feel that way around you jessica and Q, that im out of place and shouldnt be there. i know that thats not true, so i ignore the feeling. actually, i dont think there is anyone around whom i always feel completely comfortable and accepted. but thats ok, i think its a good balance. id rather be this way than dependent upon anyone. sorry, i kind of made my own blog entry here....uh, my point is that i love you, its ok for you to feel as though youre completely different and aliented and drifting away, just dont actually drift away. you and the other kids in the group are the closet things i have ever had to friends, so dont leave me. i love you!