Thoughts
All of my life I always thought that I was copying people and that there was no way I could be looked at as an individual. I guess today is the day that I am realizing that there is no one out there like me. I mean, they are people that are pretty close, like Beth, but even her and I like different music, look for different things in a guy, have slightly different morals … I mean, we are a lot alike, but still we have our differences. I guess what has shaped me is the fact that I didn’t copy what others did, but I took what I could and learned from those things. I am different than I was last year in high school. I think a lot different. I look at the world differently, I have become more conservative in some of my views, and I am actually looked at as social. Someone called me a social butterfly … what the crap! Right? Me? Last year a social butterfly is something that I would have never been called. Well … I am different. Take me for who I am. Oh, I am still a spiteful bitch sometimes, but I don’t think that will ever go away. At least I can admit it. I feel like I really know myself, and I am just looking at everything that has ever happened in the past and thinking, I wonder if things would have turned out differently if I were always the way I am now. I don’t think so. I feel like my closest friends and I have grown together and closer … well, for the most part. There has been some unexpected growing apart, but I can see why it happened. No, I am not talking about the person you all think I am talking about. I think I have spoken about this particular person with Q, Beth, and Jessica; no one else, not even them. I just feel distant, I just feel like we are heading in completely different directions. Other than all of that, things have been going good. :)