hmmm

[dancewithcolor]

hmmm.  i'm so bored.  i feel tired in several ways right now.  tired from just being so busy, tired of doing schoolwork, and in particular, tired of worrying about my friendships with people.  i feel very much taken advantage of as a friend in a few of my relationships.  some friends really only take time out of their day to hang out with me, etc

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[takemehere]

time continues moving, and sadly friendships stop and dont keep moving like time. i have noticed a change in you this week, and you and me, and us. and i thought we were doing well. well kind of. and i miss you in my life. we have always been the fun neat kids who have so much fun together. where did it go? i know we both have different friends..i KNOW that...well some are the same and some are different, but i felt the way you felt when you wrote that. i dont know how many sentences i could agree on that you wrote. seriously. i feel so lost sometimes erin. and i dont know what i am going to do sometimes. i dont know who cares. i dont know where i am going to be after highschool. i dont know which of my friends are still going to be there 15 or 20 years down the road. you are one of those that i dont want to brush off and forget just because of the trying days of highschool. you are someone that i want there, no matter how far away we might be. im sorry for making the friendship appear to be one sided. im sorry that i have not treated you the way you should have been treated. i never meant to hurt you or make you cry, or make you even THINK about why our friendship wasnt where it should be.
all i can say is im sorry.

no thats not all i can say. sorry hopefully will show you that i care and want to make things change but words can only go so far. can only go so far. and i am willing, as i and you have said time and time again, to make this friendship reach its top height. i love you with my whole heart. and i ache. this hurts. maybe you werent talking about me. but at least i got it out.