life! :]
It's almost Christmas time.
I have a new favorite song.
I have a 4th-grade-like crush on a boy, who I know absolutely nothing about.
The semester is almost over.
I am back at Journeys with all of my favorite people.
I am making new friends.
Reconnecting with old ones.
And figuring my life out.
Time flies so fast. It's been more than five months since the girls died. Which is five months since we've graduated. I am 2 weeks shy from having a semester in college completed. I am living on my own and making my own decisions. It's surreal. I had a rough patch there for a minute. But things are starting to fall back into place, I am starting to be like my old self. Thank god. I was scaring myself. I am excited about life again, and about all the things that are going to come in the future. I almost died in Toys R Us when I was picking out a present for my Cookie Monster. I absolutely cannot wait to be a mother. Lame. I know. Oh well. It's sad when you start not to care about someone who's been such a big part of your life for 15 years. But really, I cannot mother her. She is going to do what she wants to do, it makes me sad that she is probably making horrible decisions but she has to learn on her own. I will always cherish our memories, but that's all that is left really. I hope life is going swell for everyone else too.
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I have a new favorite song.
I have a 4th-grade-like crush on a boy, who I know absolutely nothing about.
The semester is almost over.
I am back at Journeys with all of my favorite people.
I am making new friends.
Reconnecting with old ones.
And figuring my life out.
Time flies so fast. It's been more than five months since the girls died. Which is five months since we've graduated. I am 2 weeks shy from having a semester in college completed. I am living on my own and making my own decisions. It's surreal. I had a rough patch there for a minute. But things are starting to fall back into place, I am starting to be like my old self. Thank god. I was scaring myself. I am excited about life again, and about all the things that are going to come in the future. I almost died in Toys R Us when I was picking out a present for my Cookie Monster. I absolutely cannot wait to be a mother. Lame. I know. Oh well. It's sad when you start not to care about someone who's been such a big part of your life for 15 years. But really, I cannot mother her. She is going to do what she wants to do, it makes me sad that she is probably making horrible decisions but she has to learn on her own. I will always cherish our memories, but that's all that is left really. I hope life is going swell for everyone else too.
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