hm
i agree...if i want to make my journal more private, i should delete the LJ altogether and write it all down on paper.
I guess I want to be more honest with my journal. You probably know if you've been a subscriber that I'm very honest here... for me, it's a substitute to a written diary with very little censored. i've always been somewhat scared of someone stumbling upon it or a reader with a big mouth, so I don't go around telling people I have an LJ or anything like that.
but I've just been thinking, I don't like the feeling that some people know the details of my daily struggles and triumphs, as much as you are my friends. I've never really been one for wearing my life on my sleeve, but to my LJ readers, that's exactly what I've done the past two years. I have a little audience that knows WAY more about me than anyone else, more than my parents, my exboyfriends, my roomates, even my best friends.
And it's kind of arbitrary, you know?
I don't want to censor my journal for anyone, and recently I've been getting to the point where I feel like I might have been. I know freshman year I did censor a ton, because there was one instance that I just totally neglected to talk about and instead just used really vague language that probably won't even ring any bells to ME in 20 years.
At the same time, there's something comforting about having an audience--an arbitrary one. I feel like the things I wouldn't tell Kristen or Jodi or Michael still need to be said, and maybe they need to be said to someone instead of empty pages.
In a way, I'd rather have the strangers read my LJ than the people I actually do know face-to-face. I don't mind being totally frank and honest with people I'll probably never even meet.
Or maybe I just will go back to journaling the old-fashioned way.
But, shiza. I've had this thing since March of my senior year. And so much has happened since then, Jesus. I feel like me and LJ have a special little bond now.
I don't know. I'm debating a few options:
1) Get rid of the LJ altogether, delete the account.
2) Change it to friends-only
3) Change it to friends-only, and remove all the people I actually know from my friends list (please don't be hurt guys.)
4) Stick to the LJ situation I've got now.
Regardless, I've been in the process of printing out all the entries over the past two and a half years. I figure its good to have a hard copy of this beast of an emotional journey.
(and yeah, I've been using library paper.)
I guess I want to be more honest with my journal. You probably know if you've been a subscriber that I'm very honest here... for me, it's a substitute to a written diary with very little censored. i've always been somewhat scared of someone stumbling upon it or a reader with a big mouth, so I don't go around telling people I have an LJ or anything like that.
but I've just been thinking, I don't like the feeling that some people know the details of my daily struggles and triumphs, as much as you are my friends. I've never really been one for wearing my life on my sleeve, but to my LJ readers, that's exactly what I've done the past two years. I have a little audience that knows WAY more about me than anyone else, more than my parents, my exboyfriends, my roomates, even my best friends.
And it's kind of arbitrary, you know?
I don't want to censor my journal for anyone, and recently I've been getting to the point where I feel like I might have been. I know freshman year I did censor a ton, because there was one instance that I just totally neglected to talk about and instead just used really vague language that probably won't even ring any bells to ME in 20 years.
At the same time, there's something comforting about having an audience--an arbitrary one. I feel like the things I wouldn't tell Kristen or Jodi or Michael still need to be said, and maybe they need to be said to someone instead of empty pages.
In a way, I'd rather have the strangers read my LJ than the people I actually do know face-to-face. I don't mind being totally frank and honest with people I'll probably never even meet.
Or maybe I just will go back to journaling the old-fashioned way.
But, shiza. I've had this thing since March of my senior year. And so much has happened since then, Jesus. I feel like me and LJ have a special little bond now.
I don't know. I'm debating a few options:
1) Get rid of the LJ altogether, delete the account.
2) Change it to friends-only
3) Change it to friends-only, and remove all the people I actually know from my friends list (please don't be hurt guys.)
4) Stick to the LJ situation I've got now.
Regardless, I've been in the process of printing out all the entries over the past two and a half years. I figure its good to have a hard copy of this beast of an emotional journey.
(and yeah, I've been using library paper.)