and also...
I miss not having anyone on the dance team anymore. I mean yes, there's Katie, my sophomore buddy, and Kristin and Kristen, but I sometimes I look at my friends in the stands and just want to be there too. It's not right... because i know if i was in the stands i would look at the dance team and want to be on the sidelines too. But seeing Emily Sarah Patricia and Kate tonight really... stung. I mean, Emily was in a dance tee, Sarah and patricia and kate were fitted for the game- sarah and patricia wearing the hip-hop tank from freshman year... the exact same tank i have in my closet... it jsut made me want to be painted up, for like wearing that dance tee, or at least wearing the tank... I mean after all these years, I'm officially the only one left. And it's like, even though kristin fields and i have been doing it since 6th grade, i feel as if it's gotten us nowhere... every morning i wake up i have to tell myself: you're doing dance because it makes you happy. and it's true. but that sure as hell doesn't make it any easier to see my friends at a home football game.