My wkend...
Man, What a wkend! Thursday night was BAD, Friday night was BAD, today was good but when cdr talked to me it was BAD. I am so angry with myself because I know that cdr is disappointed in me. Honestly I KNOW that I shouldnt of acted the way I did this wkend, and its not Deans fault (Dean, its NOT your fault) but I am supposed to hold myself to a much higher standard than everyone else, and I didnt. Even Kristy and Jeff did better at keeping their distance than I did. Cdr had every right to be angry with me tonight. I think right now, I feel so awful, its like in November w/my momma, its worse to disappoint someone than to do anything else.
My sweet sweet Dean. We've had a rough week. The week just hasnt been good at all. But I have all faith that it will get better. Maybe now we will be out of the clear for a little while. But ya know, theres always sunshine after the rain. I want you to know, that my feelings for you have developed even deeper over the weekend. There are some emotions inside me that I am attempting to sift through right now because I looked at you at one point today and thought I would cry, I felt like everything inside of me just clicked and there were some things that my heart was telling me to talk to you about/say to you but my brain took over and stopped it. I dont know which is smarter right now, my head or my heart.
Theres something I want to say about what happened tonight too. Ask me online.
Goodnight
Amy
My sweet sweet Dean. We've had a rough week. The week just hasnt been good at all. But I have all faith that it will get better. Maybe now we will be out of the clear for a little while. But ya know, theres always sunshine after the rain. I want you to know, that my feelings for you have developed even deeper over the weekend. There are some emotions inside me that I am attempting to sift through right now because I looked at you at one point today and thought I would cry, I felt like everything inside of me just clicked and there were some things that my heart was telling me to talk to you about/say to you but my brain took over and stopped it. I dont know which is smarter right now, my head or my heart.
Theres something I want to say about what happened tonight too. Ask me online.
Goodnight
Amy