So...this is how it is...
Ok, this was unexpected. Totally unexpected. I went on this trip to Norfolk (w/rotc) and now... I have feelings for yet ANOTHER guy, this one will perhaps be a tad bit more healthy than the others...but still, another one. Except this one... is one thats always been there, and now that its here and I see it, I look back and I notice little things. Like how, whenever he got a girlfriend or started talking to anyone, it secretly bothered me, but I never really pondered over WHY it bothered me. Or how, whenever any guy hurt me, he had my back and was always on my side insisting that I deserved better. Or... how.... whenever he didnt pay attention to me, or didnt speak to me, even just to say hey, it hurt my feelings, there has been more than one occassion he walked by me in the hallway and didnt say "hey amy", now I realize why I CARED if he said hey or not. Wow, what a revalation. I enjoyed his company this wkend, even him just sitting in the chair beside me watching CSI, his presense meant a lot. I didnt mind him holding my hand last night at all...
Love,
ME
Love,
ME