i still got the seed...
so its back to this. its back to where someone means something to you, but you know in your heart you mean not nearly the same to them. and in the end your just gonna drown. but you would, you would drowned for them its nothing new. all the pain that they make you feel and they are unaware of it as you smile and tell them thwey are the best. what a joke. what a fake. what the hell is this moment in time mean if i cant be in it. i hate when my thoughts become consumed into something. because then i wont let go. im just stuck here
forever. and i've been hurt before and i've had problem with relationships ...and here i am..diving headfirst into the shallow end. hoping something will save me. but i don't think thats what the case is here. i don't think this will change. so its like i have to walk away frojm my feelings. and i know i probably should. and just move on. because its like what the he;lls is the point to wonder about it. but happiness sometimes is addicting and knowing someone can make you feel that way is hard to give up. its like giving up a part of my life that actually makes me smile and gives me a reason to be happy
its not like im the wrapped up i couldnt just walk away.. i always have so much power to just walk away.
forever. and i've been hurt before and i've had problem with relationships ...and here i am..diving headfirst into the shallow end. hoping something will save me. but i don't think thats what the case is here. i don't think this will change. so its like i have to walk away frojm my feelings. and i know i probably should. and just move on. because its like what the he;lls is the point to wonder about it. but happiness sometimes is addicting and knowing someone can make you feel that way is hard to give up. its like giving up a part of my life that actually makes me smile and gives me a reason to be happy
its not like im the wrapped up i couldnt just walk away.. i always have so much power to just walk away.