thinking
I still stand here alone.... and i still wonder how it could be.. what it would have been. if you were still here.. if i could still reach out for you...if i could look into your eyes again...once more...just one more time.. I find you in my dreams when they scare me..your face appears..and everything scary fades away..its like i need you..i always needed you. yet i was never there to admit it.. i was to afraid. as always. fear has always been my problem. i still sleep with your picture sometimes..almost like it will come to life.. . when it gets hard...when i cry.. i talk to you.. liek your hear to listen.. i believe you hear me.. i have to. i still wonder what it could of felt like. to be that close to you.. i miss your kiss. i miss your touch. i miss your breath. i miss your life. i remember how i wanted to know you forever.. how i thought forever was a possibility..it was..i believed it. you believed it. where did it go? why did it slip away. i still lie iin bed. hoping for a text from you.. if only i could text you. if only i knew you were there. liek you knew i was there. i still remember the days that led to goodbye. the days that led to something wonderful. our friendship our love. i still think back to those days..because they make me smile.. when i smile i remember the way you could make me smile.. i think of you more often than not. when im at work and things get bad. i think of you...and how calm you would be in any situation.. i miss how calm you made me. my other half. the part that completed me.. the part i lost..the part i must refind... i believe in you stilkl. i love you still i think i always will. the memories they say...thewy say they fade...i think what hurts is when it fades..when you start to forget.. i started to forget your voice.. but i wanna remember it so badly... i guess i need you. they say i'll never find anything like you ever again..but something close... and that hurts. your were so perfect in every way. and now i settle down for less. and i will always think of you it seems. i wonder if you see me and still think im beautiful. if you still would love me today.. if we would havew it all... i think we would.. i know we would.. i know we do.