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It's only the second day of school, and I already came home with a headache and overtired.
Nadiya left this morning, and I spent half of last night crying after I said goodbye to her.
I'm gonna miss her forever... But I've got it set in my head that she'll be back. And so it's all okay.
But I'm in such a great mood right now, for the first time all day.
I feel like things are really getting close to being resolved with Rach. :]
I can't wait to hang out with her againnnnn, hopefully at the movies on Friday.
My mom will prbly have to do chemo every week for the rest of her life.
And I would've cried, and cried, and cried.
But I'm grateful, because that chemo is keeping her alive, and keeping her with me.
And she manages to live her life despite it. So it's all okay.
I'm glad I'm feeling so positive. I really wish I could make it last, because I know it might not. But I'm going to cling to it while I can.
I'm not depressed about this, or complaining about this... I am simply writing out what I feel to get it out.
I'm really at a state of discontent with the world. People are hurting and dying everywhere, and they shouldn't have to. Children are starving while others have three houses and eighteen cars. The problem seems so big. How can I change that? I can pray... I can spread awareness... hopefully someday, I can go to a 3rd world country and do real work... but in the longrun, how much good will that do? Millions and millions of people are in terrible situations, situations that break my heart. It all seems so hopeless if you think about it... I guess all anyone can do is help one person at a time, change one life at a time, and keep hoping... but that doesn't seem like enough. I just wish I could save everybody because the way things are now doesn't make sense to me, or seem fair at all.
Nadiya left this morning, and I spent half of last night crying after I said goodbye to her.
I'm gonna miss her forever... But I've got it set in my head that she'll be back. And so it's all okay.
But I'm in such a great mood right now, for the first time all day.
I feel like things are really getting close to being resolved with Rach. :]
I can't wait to hang out with her againnnnn, hopefully at the movies on Friday.
My mom will prbly have to do chemo every week for the rest of her life.
And I would've cried, and cried, and cried.
But I'm grateful, because that chemo is keeping her alive, and keeping her with me.
And she manages to live her life despite it. So it's all okay.
I'm glad I'm feeling so positive. I really wish I could make it last, because I know it might not. But I'm going to cling to it while I can.
I'm not depressed about this, or complaining about this... I am simply writing out what I feel to get it out.
I'm really at a state of discontent with the world. People are hurting and dying everywhere, and they shouldn't have to. Children are starving while others have three houses and eighteen cars. The problem seems so big. How can I change that? I can pray... I can spread awareness... hopefully someday, I can go to a 3rd world country and do real work... but in the longrun, how much good will that do? Millions and millions of people are in terrible situations, situations that break my heart. It all seems so hopeless if you think about it... I guess all anyone can do is help one person at a time, change one life at a time, and keep hoping... but that doesn't seem like enough. I just wish I could save everybody because the way things are now doesn't make sense to me, or seem fair at all.