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well i'm moved in. but i think you knew that.
natalie is my room-mate. she sleeps on my top bunk. it's nice having her this close to me again. i've missed her a lot. i've missed the best-female-friend connection. steven's awesome, buy he's a he. natalie makes me feel better about myself. plus she takes care of me. she can COOK.
jill is never home. she's moving out too...so we kinda need another roomate.
mandee is never home as well. she quit starbucks. her last day was sunday :/
but now it'll be easier for us to hang out :D
my hamster died. it was absolutely horrific. i came home eight hours after i checked on him and he wouldn't move. i held him for two hours, he was barely breathing. he was so dehydrated, and i hate myself for not noticing. but i've never had a hamster before. it doesn't make it okay. i should have done something. i held him and we watched a bit of Narnia. then i took him two blocks down the street (the victorian buildings) to the all creatures emergency center and had him put down. saddest day of my life so far. i've never really grieved before. i've never truly been depressed before. i know it's a hamster but i loved him, he was awesome. and he was mine. and i killed him.
my dad buried him outside out house. mom got a big rock and marked his grave. he died the 24th. i still can't look at the cage. mandee hid it in the closet for me.
i have to go meet my mom. she's helping me pick out a tree stand and some lights. we're getting a christmas tree :).
i'll write more later, and hopefully it won't be as depressing.
i miss all of you. emily you called. i got your message, i've just been depressed.
my psych teacher explained all the "symptoms" of depression. and jimmie just looked at me with this sad expression.
i wish humans could hibernate.
natalie is my room-mate. she sleeps on my top bunk. it's nice having her this close to me again. i've missed her a lot. i've missed the best-female-friend connection. steven's awesome, buy he's a he. natalie makes me feel better about myself. plus she takes care of me. she can COOK.
jill is never home. she's moving out too...so we kinda need another roomate.
mandee is never home as well. she quit starbucks. her last day was sunday :/
but now it'll be easier for us to hang out :D
my hamster died. it was absolutely horrific. i came home eight hours after i checked on him and he wouldn't move. i held him for two hours, he was barely breathing. he was so dehydrated, and i hate myself for not noticing. but i've never had a hamster before. it doesn't make it okay. i should have done something. i held him and we watched a bit of Narnia. then i took him two blocks down the street (the victorian buildings) to the all creatures emergency center and had him put down. saddest day of my life so far. i've never really grieved before. i've never truly been depressed before. i know it's a hamster but i loved him, he was awesome. and he was mine. and i killed him.
my dad buried him outside out house. mom got a big rock and marked his grave. he died the 24th. i still can't look at the cage. mandee hid it in the closet for me.
i have to go meet my mom. she's helping me pick out a tree stand and some lights. we're getting a christmas tree :).
i'll write more later, and hopefully it won't be as depressing.
i miss all of you. emily you called. i got your message, i've just been depressed.
my psych teacher explained all the "symptoms" of depression. and jimmie just looked at me with this sad expression.
i wish humans could hibernate.