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i feel spiritual unrest.
it's so much to write down, and i've already talked to steven about it, in depth. and i kind of brushed it with emily. but i feel off kilter. like...like my chakras are bloated and unsettling colors. (i bought a 'healing with color' book. it's amazing, and i'm pretty good at it.)
i also feel like i'm fighting something inside me. i guess i know i'm fighting it. i have to fight it. i'm sorry i can't tell you what that is. it's nothing scary or irrational. it's normal i suppose. and i'm fighting it but it proves to be more difficult.
so maybe that's it?
perhaps.
but then i could be making that up to compensate for this feeling. i really don't know what caused this unrest. so maybe my mind is making something up for me to place blame on and solve it that way. and it can't be solved, so therefore i'll always be focused on that and it will always be that problem.
or maybe i'm just crazy.
we'll go with crazy and call it a night.
it's so much to write down, and i've already talked to steven about it, in depth. and i kind of brushed it with emily. but i feel off kilter. like...like my chakras are bloated and unsettling colors. (i bought a 'healing with color' book. it's amazing, and i'm pretty good at it.)
i also feel like i'm fighting something inside me. i guess i know i'm fighting it. i have to fight it. i'm sorry i can't tell you what that is. it's nothing scary or irrational. it's normal i suppose. and i'm fighting it but it proves to be more difficult.
so maybe that's it?
perhaps.
but then i could be making that up to compensate for this feeling. i really don't know what caused this unrest. so maybe my mind is making something up for me to place blame on and solve it that way. and it can't be solved, so therefore i'll always be focused on that and it will always be that problem.
or maybe i'm just crazy.
we'll go with crazy and call it a night.