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And I can't tell if you're laughing,
between each smile there's a tear in your eye
There's a train leaving town in an hour
It's not waiting for you, and neither am I
Today was a pretty relaxed day, just stuffed around in the morning, then headed out to Middle in the afternoon. As I was heading out into the surf, I was wondering to myself why I was even bothering going out, it seemed so small and crap. But once I was out, I had wave after wave, pretty much to myself. I wouldn't say they were any sort of great quality, but they were quite challenging to ride, and a lot of fun. And basically I just paddled out, and would be straight back on another one.
So my time for relaxing and complete nothingness, it's starting to come to an end, which sanddens me a little, as I've been having a pretty fucking sweet time, so of course the counsellors and everyone will say "oh, you seem like you're going so well"
THAT'S COS I'M HAVING A GOOD TIME!!!
But I think getting out of Melbourne was exactly what I needed to do, I was seriously in this bad cycle, I was going nowhere, I always just felt kind of lost and lonely. I think having the break has strengthened my relationship with Kate. Like in Melbourne, I was just going towards losing my mind, and not really doing anything about it, probably just making it worse on myself, whereas having the chance to look back, I can really appreciate all that she does for me, and how much she cares for me.
I think our life in Canberra will be good. I'm also contemplating going down to Melbourne earlier than my original plan, just need to sort out some footbag related stuff.