Perhaps it was a mistake
Because my sister had a debut, it seems only fair and absolutely expected that I would have one as well. I remember that on the month my sister turned 18, my mom and I began planning mine. Yes, it's laughable, in a way. There's nothing wrong with planning ahead. It actually makes things more organized and with more organization, there's a clear picture of what lies ahead of you. This is greatly recommended and insisted upon.
Personally, I'm not much of a planner. I went to the States last summer without much of a plan. I knew what I wanted to do, but the "when"'s were pretty much spontaneous, minus Wicked and the baseball game since you had to buy tickets for those of course. Often, I wonder how my stay would have been if I had done a bit more planning, but it's alright. I loved every minute of it, save the 3 days we spent on a bus going to and fro San Francisco.
I like spontaneity. It keeps one guessing and keeps one to looking for the next surprise lurking around the corner. There were times that planning worked to my advantage, no doubt about it, but more often than not, I don't think a step-by-step program to life is for me. What happens when you plan for something, but it doesn't go as you planned? Maybe that's my fear. Based on experience, I'd say that there's more chaos than without plans to begin with. That could just be me, since I've had my share of the pros and cons of plans and on-the-spot events, so please don't contradict me right now, thanks very much!
Some comedian said, "Do you know what's the key to happiness? Lower expectations." It was certainly meant to be a joke, and it's not the best advice ever, but you know what? It makes sense. For example: Do you ever experience those events - in school especially - when there's a quiz you didn't know about and you end up getting it just the grade you want it and you're really happy? How about, have you ever experienced the exact opposite - there's an exam you knew, and have been preparing for and then you fail the exam and you fail yourself? That's how I felt a few days ago. When I prepared myself to the bone and I come up with such a result, it's painful.
I guess, I've experienced enough of that that it has affected the person that I am. I study in the last minute, I do projects the week before they're due, I do homeworks the night before, and right now, I'm planning a debut with no solid plan in mind. Heck, I don't even know how many I'm inviting. I'm trying to change, but you know what? Sometimes, change is the last thing you need. It just means...more chaos.
Personally, I'm not much of a planner. I went to the States last summer without much of a plan. I knew what I wanted to do, but the "when"'s were pretty much spontaneous, minus Wicked and the baseball game since you had to buy tickets for those of course. Often, I wonder how my stay would have been if I had done a bit more planning, but it's alright. I loved every minute of it, save the 3 days we spent on a bus going to and fro San Francisco.
I like spontaneity. It keeps one guessing and keeps one to looking for the next surprise lurking around the corner. There were times that planning worked to my advantage, no doubt about it, but more often than not, I don't think a step-by-step program to life is for me. What happens when you plan for something, but it doesn't go as you planned? Maybe that's my fear. Based on experience, I'd say that there's more chaos than without plans to begin with. That could just be me, since I've had my share of the pros and cons of plans and on-the-spot events, so please don't contradict me right now, thanks very much!
Some comedian said, "Do you know what's the key to happiness? Lower expectations." It was certainly meant to be a joke, and it's not the best advice ever, but you know what? It makes sense. For example: Do you ever experience those events - in school especially - when there's a quiz you didn't know about and you end up getting it just the grade you want it and you're really happy? How about, have you ever experienced the exact opposite - there's an exam you knew, and have been preparing for and then you fail the exam and you fail yourself? That's how I felt a few days ago. When I prepared myself to the bone and I come up with such a result, it's painful.
I guess, I've experienced enough of that that it has affected the person that I am. I study in the last minute, I do projects the week before they're due, I do homeworks the night before, and right now, I'm planning a debut with no solid plan in mind. Heck, I don't even know how many I'm inviting. I'm trying to change, but you know what? Sometimes, change is the last thing you need. It just means...more chaos.