Geez it's been way too long!
Hello! Sorry for my anti-socialness! I've been busy with work, church, and just getting sick like every two weeks! I think I'm going to take after my good pal Lindsey and use bullets it might make it easier for me to update because there certainly is a lot. I guess that's why I haven't written feeling overwhelmed by how much updating I need to do! lol
Much love
Liz
- Well life has certainly been better since last October. I'm back in my church reconnecting with the people I care for and I've joined a couple of Bible Study groups. One is the study on Ruth and the other Sermon on the Mount; Ruth is the young adult study and Sermon on the Mount is an adult study! Love both of them! I tell you being back has made me the happiest person!
- Speaking of emotions I went up for altar call and since then my emotional and spiritual life have never been better. I'm just more stable emotionally and just have this inner peace I can't describe in spite of the craziness in my personal life. This week was tough though but I'll bounce back!
- The not so good news is that I've been getting sick like every two weeks (as stated above) I finally went to the doctor's, first time in years, and they gave me an antibiotic because this weekend I've had a fever, throwing up (sorry for grossness), and the never ending runny nose post nasal drip thing! Grrr! Good news is that even though I can't sleep I'm taking the time to update my facebook profile and livejournal! :-)
- Speaking of doctor's I'm finally insured! Woohoo! First time since age 19! *does the happy dance* Felt so good to just write out a 20 dollar copay check and pay only 10 dollars for meds!
- How I got the insurance...well I'm back at my old job. I work in Daycare again which is why I'm so sick *damn those brats* lol. But it is a lot better this time around. All the trouble making girls left or were fired so now, for the most part, there is a lot more harmony in the place. But since there is an overload of estrogen it's sure to get tense sometimes lol. I love my co-worker! I'm an assistant teacher in the infant room and Barbara is the Head Teacher and she is wonderful! She looks after me, will talk to my bosses for me if I'm sick or have an issue, brag about the good things I do...she rocks and she is very knowledgable!
- Because I've been inactive on Livejournal I believe I've been kicked out of Hogwarts :-(. But I really didn't have a whole lot time lately to do activities and participate. So I'll register again once things calm down and I hope I'm a Puff again. Also hard to really earn points for my house when I'm on a computer that's shared by four other people so it's made it difficult.
- Still living at my aunt's house. Christmas was kinda tense and crazy because we had so many issues with family. But since then things have mellowed. My mom is paying her rent and she bought a laptop so maybe I can start doing my own thing without feeling I'm hogging the computer. The laptop is an HP Pavilion and it's sooo pretty but the E key only works if you really press down on it. So mom is taking it back tomorrow. But she bought the floor model so that's why it's probably a little funky.
- My mom and step dad are still figuring out if their relationship will work or not. She hasn't been sleeping much and she got back from a very stressful weekend. They were fighting a lot like serious screaming in each other's faces. He went from being repentant last month back to justifying everything. Also he wouldn't let her read his emails but she broke into the computer and found one. He's just very aggressive and my mom is done but hasn't felt a release yet from God to end the marriage. He's got a lot of mental health issues. What worries me though is that when they were in each other's faces my mom threw up her hands and tried to walk away and he slapped at her hand. Started another row of fighting. But how long till he actually hits her?
- Even though this all happened I did forgive him for our fight that we had. He didn't apologize first but I just can't carry all this anger around with me. He was thankful that I had forgiven him but my mom was extremely disappointed that he didn't apologize to me which leads me to believe he wasn't sorry and again felt justified for his actions but again didn't do it for him but for God and myself. So it frees me up to pray for him and if my mom visits again I hope she remains safe. But I still hope they divorce and can resolve things peacefully if they can because this is too much of a bad thing and it will break them.
Much love
Liz