"Dan, that icon is more than appropriate for you."
So it's 2:00a. I'm sitting here trying to work on the massive amount of homework I have to turn in tomorrow, and I began thinking about everything. In doing this I realized a few things, but granted I'm not thinking straight so this might be interesting to look at later when I'm awake...
First, for all practical purposes, going into Friday I will have gotten a combined maximum of 15 hours of sleep this whole week. From Sunday night to tonight, thats all the sleep I've been able to get. I get into my bed earlier than that, but actual sleep is much less. Yeah, that's pretty depressing.
Second, I need to stop liking people who I have no chance with. In other words, I need to stop liking people who have boyfriend's, or who I know for sure don't like me. Neither ever work out in my favor, so that sucks. I mean sure, this time things might change, but it doesn't look promising quite yet. I can dream. Like I am now. Wow it's late.
Third, I need to spend more time with friends this year. It's my last true year with everyone, and I should take advantage of that.
Fourth, I can't wait for this Saturday and the trip to Monterey with Kim and Genny. I hope that all turns out well.
Fifth, I can't wait until I move out of here. I can't wait until I am on my own, finally being able to live life without the interference of my mom especially. I probably wouldn't change much about how I live, but the freedom of knowing I could do whatever I want is very freeing.
As my eyes continue to close on their own and I begin to close my eyes for a few seconds at a time, I realize that I am really extremely tired. There is no way that this can be good for me. I'm stressed as it is.
There is no way I can get all of this homework done on time. I guess it's just going to have to be turned in really really late. Better some credit than none I guess. Everything due tomorrow is done, but all of the things due before now are not. I am such a failure at this whole school thing. College? I'll be lucky if a JC takes me even though I don't even need to apply.
Why do I have such great friends? I certainly don't deserve them.. at all. I have never done anything for them, but yet they all seem to care and want to spend time with me. I wouldn't want to spend time with me. I'm not that interesting. I don't have a great sense of humor. I don't have charisma. I'm certainly not as talented as other people. Why then do people care? I don't think they should. It's not fair to them.
School sucks. I hope my teachers are nice and generous on the progress report. If not, my life will suck even more than it does now.
I can't stay up any more. Night all.
First, for all practical purposes, going into Friday I will have gotten a combined maximum of 15 hours of sleep this whole week. From Sunday night to tonight, thats all the sleep I've been able to get. I get into my bed earlier than that, but actual sleep is much less. Yeah, that's pretty depressing.
Second, I need to stop liking people who I have no chance with. In other words, I need to stop liking people who have boyfriend's, or who I know for sure don't like me. Neither ever work out in my favor, so that sucks. I mean sure, this time things might change, but it doesn't look promising quite yet. I can dream. Like I am now. Wow it's late.
Third, I need to spend more time with friends this year. It's my last true year with everyone, and I should take advantage of that.
Fourth, I can't wait for this Saturday and the trip to Monterey with Kim and Genny. I hope that all turns out well.
Fifth, I can't wait until I move out of here. I can't wait until I am on my own, finally being able to live life without the interference of my mom especially. I probably wouldn't change much about how I live, but the freedom of knowing I could do whatever I want is very freeing.
As my eyes continue to close on their own and I begin to close my eyes for a few seconds at a time, I realize that I am really extremely tired. There is no way that this can be good for me. I'm stressed as it is.
There is no way I can get all of this homework done on time. I guess it's just going to have to be turned in really really late. Better some credit than none I guess. Everything due tomorrow is done, but all of the things due before now are not. I am such a failure at this whole school thing. College? I'll be lucky if a JC takes me even though I don't even need to apply.
Why do I have such great friends? I certainly don't deserve them.. at all. I have never done anything for them, but yet they all seem to care and want to spend time with me. I wouldn't want to spend time with me. I'm not that interesting. I don't have a great sense of humor. I don't have charisma. I'm certainly not as talented as other people. Why then do people care? I don't think they should. It's not fair to them.
School sucks. I hope my teachers are nice and generous on the progress report. If not, my life will suck even more than it does now.
I can't stay up any more. Night all.