Firefly. Zoe Washburne. 087. My Immortal (substitution on my table)
Title: Time Cannot Erase
Author:
damn_hero_zoe
Fandom: Firefly
Pairings: Zoe/Wash, Zoe/Jayne
Word Count: 417
Warnings: Post-BDM
Summary: Zoe performs a yearly ritual.
I'm so tired of being here, suppressed by all my childish fears. And if you have to leave, I wish that you would just leave ‘cause your presence still lingers here and it won't leave me alone.
She’s on the bridge, feeling so lost, like a compass without a needle. She sits in the co-pilot’s chair and draws her legs to her chest.
These wounds won't seem to heal. This pain is just too real. There's just too much that time cannot erase.
She does this almost every year, especially when they’re out in the black. For some reason, she couldn’t let him go completely. No one expected her to.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears. When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears. And I held your hand through all of these years.
She thinks of the nightmares he soothed from her memory. She remembers him fighting by her side on the skyplex to save Mal. He saw her softer side, treasured it.
You used to captivate me by your resonating light. Now I'm bound by the life you left behind.
She smiled softly as she looks over and sees his dinosaurs. He could always make her laugh, his bright eyes always shining at her.
Your face it haunts my once pleasant dreams. Your voice it chased away all the sanity in me.
She sees his face, even now, in her dreams. She remembers how his voice, soft in her ear, would enable her to relax. He had the ablity to soothe her, to keep her mind off of how poor they were, or that their last job had gone wrong.
When you cried I'd wipe away all of your tears.
Now she has Jayne. He comes up to the bridge with their daughter sleeping in his arms. She turns and he leans against the console and wipes her tears.
When you'd scream I'd fight away all of your fears.
He would hold her when her nightmare of that day, of the war, ripped her from sleep. He protects her. She smiles up at him.
I’ve held your hand through all over these years.
She takes his hand and squeezes it. He hands her their child and the little girl snuggles close to her mother.
But you still have all of me.
And she did. She had all of Wash. But both he and Jayne had all of her. Remembrance is hard for her, but Zoë needs to do it.
Cross posted a bunch of places....