depressed again? god, this is getting tedious...
i'm going through a very evil phase, brought on by insecurity. i want to be wanted. i want to be pursued. i'm sick of being the girl who's with one guy in a stable relationship and who nobody ever seems to see as a desirable person. i want guys to see me and want me, to follow me round at parties just so they can watch me, and then for me to NOT pay any attention to them. anyway, i don't know why i'm writing about all this. it's so very unhelpful. i'm impatient too. i want this acting career to hurry up and happen.
gah, i'm going now.
gah, i'm going now.