Lost in the unknown.
How do you tell someone that they are the best part of you. More importantly how do you keep going on when they are gone. I know its not right of me to always want her in my life like it has been but right now facing the fact she will be basicly no longer in it is killing me. Every time I see her name at work I have to force back the tears and put on the brave face. People have started to ask me around the store what I think about her leaving and I lie and say I am okay with it and that I know things will be fine. When really every question is like being hit in the gut, and unwanted reminder that the person I have been the closest with in my life is soon going to be nothing more then a name on a computer screen and a random text now and then. Here I sit a over a year after we broke up and I still wake up every morning thinking about what she is up to and every night falling asleep to thought of her. I fear now its just a matter of time before the messages get farther and farther apart and the texts fade to nothing. They have slowly started to do that since the day we stopped being a couple. But if it has to be like that I guess its only fitting it happens in the way our friendship started, Online with random messages back and fort and very out of the blue. I wish you all the best in life my best friend and that you are able to find all the answers to the questions you have in life. The Forest of fun will be much less bright and far to quiet with you gone. What kind of friend would I be if I didn't keep your spot in the cave clean and dry should you ever feel like coming back to run around with an old tired wolf. You have made my life better in so many ways just by being a part of it for even such a short time. I love you and Thank you for every moment of our time together, even the times that hurt us both.