Heaven Sent , Hell Bound
I'm actually really conflicted on how to start this entry , a witty joke? .... clever double entandra? ..... no , wait .... I can't do that because that would contain two sylable words now won't that .... and lord knows my vocabulary is so neo-prolific that only the simplist of dullards and bottom feeders can even begin to stomach reading it ....
Yet we all know that is not the case so of corse I was really taken back when I casually looked to my freinds page , hoping to find updates from those that matter to me ..... but of all things to find I see a very nasty entry bashing me in each and every fashion avalible , and worst it came from soemone I condiserd a really good freind.
Now I shall publicly state fore the record that not all that was said was offensive , in fact some was dead on balls accurate ..... and I would like to comment on those right now , take away the power of an insult by admitting to it and accepting it as fault.
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#1 - Yes , I did in fact smell during this past weekend .... and for that I have appologized until I am blue in the face , well lets go for a light shade of magenta now cuz I'M SORRY. You see that is something about common human beings , we make stupid mistakes ..... it's in our nature to do so , I cannot appologize for being human .... thats just the way it is. I made a horrible mistake by not going and taking a shower while I was at others home .... that was my fault and no one else ..... I accept it and can only toss myself at the alter of forgivness , merely saying ..... no one is perfect ..... not even those that would like to belive it.
#2 - No , I did not walk up to Checkers in order to get food , .... yes I admit this as well .... but really what would the point of the walk have been? Walk up to a fast food resturant , stand there outside doing nothing while two people make out , get food that was going to be brought back anyway , walk all the way back to the apartment and then sit and eat , .... well that sounds all nice and good except for the fact that not every single person is the same ..... you can call me out of shape , fat , nasty and what ever other clever metaphore you can come up with .... I've been called them before ... and yea , there probley true .... I am fat .... am I happy about it , No ..... do I want to change it , Yes and I have been taking messures to do something about it .... but that takes time , remeber the saying "Rome was'nt built in a day" well ..... neither can this happen sudenly. I have damaged my body over the years badly , from idiotic deals like drug use and backyard wrestling matches to things that helped me out in life a great deal ... but they took there toll on me ..... I'm 25 w/ bad knees , a injured back and countless other small pains ..... no I don't want pitty , just understanding.
#3 - While I was there I was to be sleeping on the floor , I do not recall ever bitching about it .... no , Tony was the one that constantly said "Ya'll need some damn furniture ... I'm sick of sitting on the fucking floor" .... I never said anything .... I was happy you had invited me over that is all. Yes the floor was hard and did hurt my neck and back to lay on , but I never complained .... but I did ask at one point if I may lay in the room and on the bed ..... a request granted by both parties there ..... remember before you trash someone for doing something please just understand that you gave permission. If I had been awakend and asked to vacate the bed then I would have gladly done so , but was I woken up? .... Nope ..... just slammed behind my back via this medium while being smiled at face to face.
Now I would like to end this with a few talking points memos on a couple of subjects , ..... #1 I ws npt asked to bring anything .... I was not told to bring my own towel ..... I was not told to breing my own shampoo .... I was never informed to bring my own food or my own money to give them for said food .... I was under the understanding that I was a guest and in such I understood a guest to be one whom was invited and treated by the host to a good time .... I'm sorry if I misunderstood this concept.
In another entry I was accused of eating up hotdogs , I would like to state for the record that I did not eat any shape for or fashion of a hot dog , #2 .... you both said that you could not remember when you had any hotdogs yet once I leave it suddenly becomes my fault .... well I can assure you that I did not eat them and had I eaten them I would have gladly told you.
I can't really understand the attack on my intelligence , you know I speak and think on a higher level than two sylable words ... so why state that? .... were you trying to hurt my feelings? .... was it a systamatic attempt to bring me down and make me sad? .... I've been called worse and I know I'm not stupid , .... I may not be Einstein but I can hold my own with anyone in a conversation.
Now , I am extending the perverable olive branch ..... please take this and listen. I want to save a freindship , .... if you never wish me to stay over a single night (And then only if we were gaming) then I can accept that ..... but to loose contact over something this trival and mundane is just foolish.
If you would like to open the lines of communication , for me they never closed ..... just write me , message me or email me and say Hey .... or just tell me there is no chance in hell so I can know I've lost two good freinds over this trilibite shit ..... that way I won't worry and wonder if I have two less freinds on the list.
With all Sincerity and Love ,
Clay Cleveland
Yet we all know that is not the case so of corse I was really taken back when I casually looked to my freinds page , hoping to find updates from those that matter to me ..... but of all things to find I see a very nasty entry bashing me in each and every fashion avalible , and worst it came from soemone I condiserd a really good freind.
Now I shall publicly state fore the record that not all that was said was offensive , in fact some was dead on balls accurate ..... and I would like to comment on those right now , take away the power of an insult by admitting to it and accepting it as fault.
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#1 - Yes , I did in fact smell during this past weekend .... and for that I have appologized until I am blue in the face , well lets go for a light shade of magenta now cuz I'M SORRY. You see that is something about common human beings , we make stupid mistakes ..... it's in our nature to do so , I cannot appologize for being human .... thats just the way it is. I made a horrible mistake by not going and taking a shower while I was at others home .... that was my fault and no one else ..... I accept it and can only toss myself at the alter of forgivness , merely saying ..... no one is perfect ..... not even those that would like to belive it.
#2 - No , I did not walk up to Checkers in order to get food , .... yes I admit this as well .... but really what would the point of the walk have been? Walk up to a fast food resturant , stand there outside doing nothing while two people make out , get food that was going to be brought back anyway , walk all the way back to the apartment and then sit and eat , .... well that sounds all nice and good except for the fact that not every single person is the same ..... you can call me out of shape , fat , nasty and what ever other clever metaphore you can come up with .... I've been called them before ... and yea , there probley true .... I am fat .... am I happy about it , No ..... do I want to change it , Yes and I have been taking messures to do something about it .... but that takes time , remeber the saying "Rome was'nt built in a day" well ..... neither can this happen sudenly. I have damaged my body over the years badly , from idiotic deals like drug use and backyard wrestling matches to things that helped me out in life a great deal ... but they took there toll on me ..... I'm 25 w/ bad knees , a injured back and countless other small pains ..... no I don't want pitty , just understanding.
#3 - While I was there I was to be sleeping on the floor , I do not recall ever bitching about it .... no , Tony was the one that constantly said "Ya'll need some damn furniture ... I'm sick of sitting on the fucking floor" .... I never said anything .... I was happy you had invited me over that is all. Yes the floor was hard and did hurt my neck and back to lay on , but I never complained .... but I did ask at one point if I may lay in the room and on the bed ..... a request granted by both parties there ..... remember before you trash someone for doing something please just understand that you gave permission. If I had been awakend and asked to vacate the bed then I would have gladly done so , but was I woken up? .... Nope ..... just slammed behind my back via this medium while being smiled at face to face.
Now I would like to end this with a few talking points memos on a couple of subjects , ..... #1 I ws npt asked to bring anything .... I was not told to bring my own towel ..... I was not told to breing my own shampoo .... I was never informed to bring my own food or my own money to give them for said food .... I was under the understanding that I was a guest and in such I understood a guest to be one whom was invited and treated by the host to a good time .... I'm sorry if I misunderstood this concept.
In another entry I was accused of eating up hotdogs , I would like to state for the record that I did not eat any shape for or fashion of a hot dog , #2 .... you both said that you could not remember when you had any hotdogs yet once I leave it suddenly becomes my fault .... well I can assure you that I did not eat them and had I eaten them I would have gladly told you.
I can't really understand the attack on my intelligence , you know I speak and think on a higher level than two sylable words ... so why state that? .... were you trying to hurt my feelings? .... was it a systamatic attempt to bring me down and make me sad? .... I've been called worse and I know I'm not stupid , .... I may not be Einstein but I can hold my own with anyone in a conversation.
Now , I am extending the perverable olive branch ..... please take this and listen. I want to save a freindship , .... if you never wish me to stay over a single night (And then only if we were gaming) then I can accept that ..... but to loose contact over something this trival and mundane is just foolish.
If you would like to open the lines of communication , for me they never closed ..... just write me , message me or email me and say Hey .... or just tell me there is no chance in hell so I can know I've lost two good freinds over this trilibite shit ..... that way I won't worry and wonder if I have two less freinds on the list.
With all Sincerity and Love ,
Clay Cleveland