Contemplation
You would think that living the life I do that a weekend when all around me is calm and quiet, that I would feel relaxed, that I would almost feel...happy.
But instead; I laugh at the amusement of the situation, as the stillness in the air causes a great amount of discomfort to me.
At one point I used to enjoy a calm, simple life; when I would grow tense and on edge when things began to grow chaotic...my guard would rise more and more the longer it continued, and I anxiously awaited that stillness in the air.
Now, I welcome the chaos and the disorder with open arms, as it has become my home. My evenings are now filled with rumors,lies,treachery, and blood.I am constantly wondering when I will need to jump to the defense of my Covenant mates whom I am sworn to protect, when I will have to defend even myself from sharp word and sword; and when I will fall to ash.
Ah, the life of a Kindred within the City of Angels, how exciting, no?
Almost everyone I know and care for is at the Conclave in Milwaukee for the next 4 nights...I chose not to go. I do not take kindly to bearing witness to treacherous words and actions, and those very things come in abundance when an overly large amount of Kindred are confined within a small area.
Instead? I stay with my dearest Micheal, my beloved Sire who without him, I would no longer be part of this world, and I would not be who I am today.
Let us hope that he will ease my nerves that come with the stillness of the night, and that we can forget about our woes, and enjoy the time we have alone together, something I have missed for some time.
But instead; I laugh at the amusement of the situation, as the stillness in the air causes a great amount of discomfort to me.
At one point I used to enjoy a calm, simple life; when I would grow tense and on edge when things began to grow chaotic...my guard would rise more and more the longer it continued, and I anxiously awaited that stillness in the air.
Now, I welcome the chaos and the disorder with open arms, as it has become my home. My evenings are now filled with rumors,lies,treachery, and blood.I am constantly wondering when I will need to jump to the defense of my Covenant mates whom I am sworn to protect, when I will have to defend even myself from sharp word and sword; and when I will fall to ash.
Ah, the life of a Kindred within the City of Angels, how exciting, no?
Almost everyone I know and care for is at the Conclave in Milwaukee for the next 4 nights...I chose not to go. I do not take kindly to bearing witness to treacherous words and actions, and those very things come in abundance when an overly large amount of Kindred are confined within a small area.
Instead? I stay with my dearest Micheal, my beloved Sire who without him, I would no longer be part of this world, and I would not be who I am today.
Let us hope that he will ease my nerves that come with the stillness of the night, and that we can forget about our woes, and enjoy the time we have alone together, something I have missed for some time.