End of the Blue Fox
This is very hard to write.
I'm going to have to do something rather drastic to close a door to the past that shouldn't be opened again. This is something that is usually very hard for me under any circumstances. I can put toys and pictures and other things into a box and hide them away until they don't hurt, but i can't put away something that I see every day.
My entire online identity is based on a nickname she gave me. Fox. ReynardBleu. Sam Fox. They have to go. Sam is from my grandfather, so I'm proud and happy to keep that. That never belonged to her alone.
As soon as I get a rename token I'm going to use it, because I'm still too much of a "pack rat" to give up this journal entirely. So I'll rename it. And I'm moving my gaming gmail to dame dot grise at gmail dot com.
I'm tired of running into this pain when I'm already low and depressed and struggling. I want my emotional life back. It's only fair to Christian.
I'm also going to be giving up Henry's journal (
henry_linden) and eventually finish the tedious cleaning up at Diaryland. Posts will now be transferred to
invisible_choir. I think in some ways I may be giving Henry up too, eventually. He's not been a big part of my creative life for some time.
I'll need to redesign the journal and get a new default icon. Anyone artistic or wise in the way of LJ layouts want to help? I'm stubborn. I stick with things past all reason. Anything you do will be here to stay, or wherever I go, for years to come.
I don't know what else this will affect yet. I'll keep you updated.
I'm going to have to do something rather drastic to close a door to the past that shouldn't be opened again. This is something that is usually very hard for me under any circumstances. I can put toys and pictures and other things into a box and hide them away until they don't hurt, but i can't put away something that I see every day.
My entire online identity is based on a nickname she gave me. Fox. ReynardBleu. Sam Fox. They have to go. Sam is from my grandfather, so I'm proud and happy to keep that. That never belonged to her alone.
As soon as I get a rename token I'm going to use it, because I'm still too much of a "pack rat" to give up this journal entirely. So I'll rename it. And I'm moving my gaming gmail to dame dot grise at gmail dot com.
I'm tired of running into this pain when I'm already low and depressed and struggling. I want my emotional life back. It's only fair to Christian.
I'm also going to be giving up Henry's journal (
henry_linden) and eventually finish the tedious cleaning up at Diaryland. Posts will now be transferred to
invisible_choir. I think in some ways I may be giving Henry up too, eventually. He's not been a big part of my creative life for some time.
I'll need to redesign the journal and get a new default icon. Anyone artistic or wise in the way of LJ layouts want to help? I'm stubborn. I stick with things past all reason. Anything you do will be here to stay, or wherever I go, for years to come.
I don't know what else this will affect yet. I'll keep you updated.