A while it has been...
Read the subject line jackasshole. This is my "it has been a long while and I need to update post" post. (Yes I meant to write post twice.)
Anyway life is life and life can be a real bitch sometimes eh? Not too sure as to what I want to do yet but I know for sure that I need to get the fuck out of Wisconsin, and fast. This place is driving me crazy and I need out. I need to escape from certain friends that I've grown distant with, I need to escape from a certain ex that I swear has fucked me up something fierce. No woman has ever had that affect on me and I don't know why she does. I do not want to be back with her because she is a horrible person but I still find myself caring about her...a lot and I dont' know why. And it's starting to drive me crazy. It also doesn't help that the girl simply will not leave me alone. Last week she was talking about "being friends for now while maybe letting something develop." HELLO, I don't want to be friends with you because I do not want something to develop. So she gets mad and tries to piss me off but it doesn't work. Yet, I worry about her because I worry that she's going to hurt herself or get into some serious trouble.
Maybe that's what she needs? Maybe she needs one of those sobering life lessons that makes you grow the fuck up? Maybe not. Maybe it won't help anyway, the girl has been through a lot. Not to air her laundry out here but nobody that reads this really knows her anyway (that I know of). But I just don't get it, what is it going to take for this girl to realize that she's jacked the fuck up man? Do the two psychiatrists that she's currently seeing not help? What about the Zoloft? Or maybe it's her drinking that she simply can't seem to let go. Oh, but she quit for seven months and that was good enough. Stupido, you quit then because you attacked your roomie, hitting her multiple times and throwing a table on her, nearly knocking her unconscious. I do not envy her life. I do not want to be a part of her life. I need out. She simply will not leave me be. I've never run away from anything in my life before but I fear there is no other way to do this. I've been wanting to get out of Wisconsin for a long time now anyway.
Would you consider it running away? Or would you consider it moving on?
Anyway life is life and life can be a real bitch sometimes eh? Not too sure as to what I want to do yet but I know for sure that I need to get the fuck out of Wisconsin, and fast. This place is driving me crazy and I need out. I need to escape from certain friends that I've grown distant with, I need to escape from a certain ex that I swear has fucked me up something fierce. No woman has ever had that affect on me and I don't know why she does. I do not want to be back with her because she is a horrible person but I still find myself caring about her...a lot and I dont' know why. And it's starting to drive me crazy. It also doesn't help that the girl simply will not leave me alone. Last week she was talking about "being friends for now while maybe letting something develop." HELLO, I don't want to be friends with you because I do not want something to develop. So she gets mad and tries to piss me off but it doesn't work. Yet, I worry about her because I worry that she's going to hurt herself or get into some serious trouble.
Maybe that's what she needs? Maybe she needs one of those sobering life lessons that makes you grow the fuck up? Maybe not. Maybe it won't help anyway, the girl has been through a lot. Not to air her laundry out here but nobody that reads this really knows her anyway (that I know of). But I just don't get it, what is it going to take for this girl to realize that she's jacked the fuck up man? Do the two psychiatrists that she's currently seeing not help? What about the Zoloft? Or maybe it's her drinking that she simply can't seem to let go. Oh, but she quit for seven months and that was good enough. Stupido, you quit then because you attacked your roomie, hitting her multiple times and throwing a table on her, nearly knocking her unconscious. I do not envy her life. I do not want to be a part of her life. I need out. She simply will not leave me be. I've never run away from anything in my life before but I fear there is no other way to do this. I've been wanting to get out of Wisconsin for a long time now anyway.
Would you consider it running away? Or would you consider it moving on?