First day of the rest of my life.
Hahaha, not really, today is just the first day of school. But it sucks all the same. Well it's finally my senior year, I didn't really think it would matter that much, me being a senior and all but I guess I was wrong. I feel differant walking down these halls and stuff, I feel like I have grown over the summer or something like that. I know it is silly today especailly if it is coming from some one like me. (One without sentiment, even if it is one full of sentiment and just choses not to show it.) I guess I sorta realised the change when I was signing Gerty's yearbook. I have always been the first one too sign it, even after all of these years, but looking at that blank page and all those thoughts going through my head, I just didn't know what too put on. Sure I am going to be seeing her every day for the next year. But what happens after we both graduate? She is going to go onto school to become a nurse, and I am going to probably be shipped off to some foreign country. Lauryn is training to be a doctor, and Tanya is also training in the medical field. All my friends are going to be going off to differant colleges, from all over the state, and I am going to be gone. For all I know, after school is done I might never see them again. Sure we all promise we are going to keep in touch, but doesn't everyone? I remember when a few of my friends moved when I was in grade school. We were in tears, and we promised to write eachother practically everyday. But we obviously have not kept our words to that hollow promise. I don't want it to be the same with my friends now, but what choice do I have? This silly town is the only thing that is keeping us together, and after school is done, that tie is going to be broken, and nothing but a hollow promise will keep me connected to them. It's not the way I want it to end, but what other options are available? Maybe I am thinking about this too much, or maybe in some oddball case I am not thinking of it enough. Hmn, I don't know. But my brain like hurts and stuff. I have been up since seven o'clock yesterday. & I still have five hours left of school. What a drag...