So, what to do now?
Sitting in the very early morning (or very late in the night, since it's 02.44 a. m.) I'm asking myself this question. I'm back to my regular self who sleeps till the very afternoon and goes to bed when it's almost dawn. Soon it will be time to forget about it and forcibly wake up at the most hated hour ever. I won't complain because it's not the point here. Which one of those who has to work does not complain about it, huh?
But for now, I'm enjoying my vacation. Maybe I won't be studying, although there's a lot to revise, and exams come faster than I want them, but I managed to cope with some things. Most important is that I'm writting my BA paper. At least this is what I proudly call 'writting'. Maybe I'll finish it before this one big piece of crap I'm studying at, ends its miserable existance. But I doubt it. Work goes slowly and chaotically, but it goes ;)
Actually, I'm being one lazy bum during all this time. Moreover, a very anti-social one. Four walls with me in the middle. Can anything be more desired? I wonder how much will it take for me to start screaming "mabusiiiiii!!!!!" every time I'll be seeing someone entering my space? Nosebleed wil complete the pretty picture. I still have this strong feeling of being the wrong piece of the puzzle. It's easy to forget it and then it rots in the corner or under the couch. It fits nowhere, it's ugly. and it's a waste of time to search for my own puzzle. I'm myself puzzled enough.
One thing nudges me since we moved here. It's been like four years now, and I can't read in this flat. I just can't find myself a good place to sit, curl up and forget about this what surrounds me. It's very annoying for I've been reading almost all my life. I have some books I'd like to start, but... even my good spirit comes only from time to time. I don't feel his energy floating above me nor around me like it was before. Could it be that something had happeded in the place I live now? Something bad? It's really hard for me to focus on anything here. On the contary, I can do it at work! Now that's a surprise, considering the fact what happened there!!
and answering my question- back to yaoi anime :D (before someone will wake up. I'd be screwed then...)
But for now, I'm enjoying my vacation. Maybe I won't be studying, although there's a lot to revise, and exams come faster than I want them, but I managed to cope with some things. Most important is that I'm writting my BA paper. At least this is what I proudly call 'writting'. Maybe I'll finish it before this one big piece of crap I'm studying at, ends its miserable existance. But I doubt it. Work goes slowly and chaotically, but it goes ;)
Actually, I'm being one lazy bum during all this time. Moreover, a very anti-social one. Four walls with me in the middle. Can anything be more desired? I wonder how much will it take for me to start screaming "mabusiiiiii!!!!!" every time I'll be seeing someone entering my space? Nosebleed wil complete the pretty picture. I still have this strong feeling of being the wrong piece of the puzzle. It's easy to forget it and then it rots in the corner or under the couch. It fits nowhere, it's ugly. and it's a waste of time to search for my own puzzle. I'm myself puzzled enough.
One thing nudges me since we moved here. It's been like four years now, and I can't read in this flat. I just can't find myself a good place to sit, curl up and forget about this what surrounds me. It's very annoying for I've been reading almost all my life. I have some books I'd like to start, but... even my good spirit comes only from time to time. I don't feel his energy floating above me nor around me like it was before. Could it be that something had happeded in the place I live now? Something bad? It's really hard for me to focus on anything here. On the contary, I can do it at work! Now that's a surprise, considering the fact what happened there!!
and answering my question- back to yaoi anime :D (before someone will wake up. I'd be screwed then...)