Just don't know anymore
Hey how is everyone doing? I hope alot better than me. It's like everytime I TRY and doing something right or nice it always goes down the shit drain. Here is how it all started... My suppose to be friend wanted me to go out to eat with her husband and her because he has no friends and I was tryin to be a nice and friendly person so I went. Well she backed out on it (as usual) so I went. Well I pissed Crystal off some how the next couple of days and she goes and writes my husband an email and tells him that I slept with her ugly ass husband. (Which by the way I did no such thing) I love my husband dearly as you can tell in my journal. My husband went and actually believed her. And to this day he has doubts. I feel like I've hurt him. I feel like I betrayed him somehow. I don't know what to do, I don't know what to say, and I love him sooo very much. He is my world and everything above and beyond. Well here are some emails. Also here are some poems I wrote to him that he hasn't recieved yet. Talk at ya lata.
Even though we live so far
apart were still together
our love grows for each
other each and everyday
Baby everyday my love
grows for you, I fall in love
with you over and over again
I wish I could just show my
my love for you but I can't now
The distance between us
prevents me from doing just that
I wish I could show my love
for you and say I love you to
your face because, baby
I do love you with all my heart
always n forever I will be yours.
PERFECT
It rained love that night
Everything was perfectly right
As you stared into my eyes
My heart blushed, receiving the feelings
released from your soul straight into mine
And although I wanted to speak, my lips were refrained
Submitted and hypnotized by your love
Yet, the pace of my heart said it all
The look in my eyes said it all
The quivering of my lips said it all
The heat that rushed to my face, causing it to blush, said it all
And without one word being spoken, you knew,
Knew how much it meant to me, you by my side
You knew how much I loved you
And how I was so overwhelmed with your love, I cried
You knew I was deeply sorry for all I ever did
Thus, most of all, you knew that moment with you by my side was,
Perfect
THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL
I love the way you look at me
I love the way you smile
I love the way you make me feel
My life has been worth while
I love the way you hold me tight
I love the way you smell
I love the way you make me feel
What words just can not tell
I love the way you hold my hand
I love the way you touch
I love the way you make me feel
That I am worth so much
I love the way you walk with me
I love the way you speak
I love the way you make me feel
As my knees grow weak
I love the way you hug me close
I love the way you kiss
I love the way you make me feel
This love I will always miss
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY
Today is a day,
That is very special to me.
Because Today is the Day,
Of our anniversary.
I have no chocolate candy,
Or pretty daffodils,
All I have is this poem,
To tell you how I fell.
From the day I first saw you,
I knew you were the one.
And asking you to marry me.
Was the greatest thing I've done.
You keep me out of trouble,
And always make me laugh.
For me, there is no other.
You are my other half.
Sure sometimes we argue.
About this and about that.
But then I look into your eyes,
And I forget where I am at.
Sure these years have been long,
And next year won't be a piece of cake.
But You Pearley Boatwright
You are Well Worth The Wait.
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: hey
Date: 7:42pm 1/16/05
hey sweetie how is everything in the rear sorry about early today but Krystal emailed me again and she stands 100% percent behind her self. But I believe you didn't do anything but earlier today who was in the background laughing while Kristi was talking to me was it you? I love you with my heart and soul and nothing is ever going to change that. Love you always and good night.
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: love you eternally
Date: 6:38am 1/17/05
Hi sweetie just got on and sending you a kiss and a hug. I love you until the day I die.
Missing you and saying te amo and hente he bebe. Everynight to the stars above and wishing and hoping you are doing the same and hoping you are hearing me say te amo mi amor buenas noches. Love you eternally. :-)
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: RE: RE: love you eternally
Date: 6:52am 1/17/05
Yes sweetie every pic and every email beautiful I love the ones of you smiling and looking at the camra It's almost like you lookimg at me. Sexy
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: RE: RE: RE: RE: love you eternally
Date: 7:42am 1/17/05
Sorry sweetie I was just reading past emails from u mainly looking at the pics you sent and wishing I was there with you instead of here I love with all my heart and soul and would fight for you no matter what I love you forever more
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: love you eternally
Date: 7:51am 1/17/05
I was also reading your journal and it helped me understand alot. I'm going to let you go please sweetie get some sleep please. I love you and I will talk to you later on
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: Re:
Date: 4:33am 1/18/05
Hi sweetie first off I love you with every bit of my heart soul body and mind and I will always love you and it was a good thing that I read your journal. I was hoping you was on so I could im you until I had to go to work but any how. I love you and I will talk to you later.
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: Re:
Date: 3:31pm 1/19/05
hey sweetie how are you holding up and how is everything over there? I'm doing fine just enjoying my lunch break and emailing you I love you with all my heart and soul and never will do anything to hurt you and I miss the sweet smell of your hair being next to me in bed and I miss the way you laugh. and I miss hearing your sweet voice. It's like an angel singing Amazing Grace and it lefts me up even from the darkest of my hours. Love forever your husband.
Date: Fri, 14 Jan 2005 01:18:54 -0800 (PST)
From: "Pearly Boatwright"
Subject: love you much and miss you even more
To: "LaDonna Boatwright"
Hi honey how are you? I know you want to hear my voice but you can't well not untill you send me the check card number. Then I'll be able to talk to you. I miss you more each and every single day. I'm glad you and Kristi is getting a house together but why are you hanging around Kristi so much? I thought you didn't like her. How's your tongue is it getting any better? I need to hear your voice I'm about to go crazy around. You're all I think about "over and over" agoin do I think about you. Well have a good time at the clubs and I'll see you in August. Love always your neverending husband
Date: Sat, 15 Jan 2005 01:34:48 -0800 (PST)
From: "Pearly Boatwright"
Subject: Re: I love you more than anything in this world.
To: "LaDonna Boatwright"
Hey Baby how are you? I'm fine just got a slight cold and dealing with the deployment. I got on yesterday but you were not on at the same time I got off early to eat lunch because for some wierd reason I was hungry. LOL I was talking with Lt. CL. Jenseen today. He asked mainly how I was doing and I told him I was mainly waiting for August and he said it was just around the corner. I just want to go home and be with you but first I have to get this deployment over with. Talk to you later and tell Kristi I said Hi. Love you forever and a day Pearley
Date: Sun, 16 Jan 2005 01:23:27 -0800 (PST)
From: "Pearly Boatwright"
Subject: Re: I Love you!!!!!!!!
To: "LaDonna Boatwright"
You are such an angel no one could ever doubt your love.
You are an angel sent down from above.
Seeing you in my thoughts and dreams;
Missing your smell of lavender and creams.
Knowing no one could ever take you away from here;
From where my thoughts and my dreams that here.
Forever in my mind is you and you alone yet;
You are the best thing ever you bet.
Wishing I could have you here to hold to kiss.
To satisfy you with every kiss.
From your heart within I know you love me for me;
Not for money or for fame but just me.
Love you sweetie see you in August.
Date: Sun, 16 Jan 2005 06:24:27 -0800 (PST)
From: "Pearly Boatwright"
Subject: why
To: "LaDonna Boatwright" , "LaDonna Boatwright" <18034631363@mms.suncom.net>, "Cassie" , "Chris" , "CJ" , cynthia.hamiliton@checmail.com, "tiffany ford" , "Harley" , "Jake" , "Jesse Mae" , "Jessie"
, "Patty Lott" , "brain mccormick" , mlott@lex_lib.sc.us
how did this happen to me when ya'll promise to keep tabs on my wife and make sure she doesn't cheat on me? And you LaDonna why did you do it why did you spend the night with another man and still was happy to get a phone call from him? Why when I put my full trust in you and swore I will never leave you why? You said we need to talk yet you haven't even replied to me yet why? Waitin on you to answer!
Even though we live so far
apart were still together
our love grows for each
other each and everyday
Baby everyday my love
grows for you, I fall in love
with you over and over again
I wish I could just show my
my love for you but I can't now
The distance between us
prevents me from doing just that
I wish I could show my love
for you and say I love you to
your face because, baby
I do love you with all my heart
always n forever I will be yours.
PERFECT
It rained love that night
Everything was perfectly right
As you stared into my eyes
My heart blushed, receiving the feelings
released from your soul straight into mine
And although I wanted to speak, my lips were refrained
Submitted and hypnotized by your love
Yet, the pace of my heart said it all
The look in my eyes said it all
The quivering of my lips said it all
The heat that rushed to my face, causing it to blush, said it all
And without one word being spoken, you knew,
Knew how much it meant to me, you by my side
You knew how much I loved you
And how I was so overwhelmed with your love, I cried
You knew I was deeply sorry for all I ever did
Thus, most of all, you knew that moment with you by my side was,
Perfect
THE WAY YOU MAKE ME FEEL
I love the way you look at me
I love the way you smile
I love the way you make me feel
My life has been worth while
I love the way you hold me tight
I love the way you smell
I love the way you make me feel
What words just can not tell
I love the way you hold my hand
I love the way you touch
I love the way you make me feel
That I am worth so much
I love the way you walk with me
I love the way you speak
I love the way you make me feel
As my knees grow weak
I love the way you hug me close
I love the way you kiss
I love the way you make me feel
This love I will always miss
HAPPY ANNIVERSARY
Today is a day,
That is very special to me.
Because Today is the Day,
Of our anniversary.
I have no chocolate candy,
Or pretty daffodils,
All I have is this poem,
To tell you how I fell.
From the day I first saw you,
I knew you were the one.
And asking you to marry me.
Was the greatest thing I've done.
You keep me out of trouble,
And always make me laugh.
For me, there is no other.
You are my other half.
Sure sometimes we argue.
About this and about that.
But then I look into your eyes,
And I forget where I am at.
Sure these years have been long,
And next year won't be a piece of cake.
But You Pearley Boatwright
You are Well Worth The Wait.
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: hey
Date: 7:42pm 1/16/05
hey sweetie how is everything in the rear sorry about early today but Krystal emailed me again and she stands 100% percent behind her self. But I believe you didn't do anything but earlier today who was in the background laughing while Kristi was talking to me was it you? I love you with my heart and soul and nothing is ever going to change that. Love you always and good night.
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: love you eternally
Date: 6:38am 1/17/05
Hi sweetie just got on and sending you a kiss and a hug. I love you until the day I die.
Missing you and saying te amo and hente he bebe. Everynight to the stars above and wishing and hoping you are doing the same and hoping you are hearing me say te amo mi amor buenas noches. Love you eternally. :-)
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: RE: RE: love you eternally
Date: 6:52am 1/17/05
Yes sweetie every pic and every email beautiful I love the ones of you smiling and looking at the camra It's almost like you lookimg at me. Sexy
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: RE: RE: RE: RE: love you eternally
Date: 7:42am 1/17/05
Sorry sweetie I was just reading past emails from u mainly looking at the pics you sent and wishing I was there with you instead of here I love with all my heart and soul and would fight for you no matter what I love you forever more
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: RE: RE: RE: RE: RE: love you eternally
Date: 7:51am 1/17/05
I was also reading your journal and it helped me understand alot. I'm going to let you go please sweetie get some sleep please. I love you and I will talk to you later on
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: Re:
Date: 4:33am 1/18/05
Hi sweetie first off I love you with every bit of my heart soul body and mind and I will always love you and it was a good thing that I read your journal. I was hoping you was on so I could im you until I had to go to work but any how. I love you and I will talk to you later.
-- FW: --Original Msg--
From: bluesyboy2001@yahoo.com
Subject: Re:
Date: 3:31pm 1/19/05
hey sweetie how are you holding up and how is everything over there? I'm doing fine just enjoying my lunch break and emailing you I love you with all my heart and soul and never will do anything to hurt you and I miss the sweet smell of your hair being next to me in bed and I miss the way you laugh. and I miss hearing your sweet voice. It's like an angel singing Amazing Grace and it lefts me up even from the darkest of my hours. Love forever your husband.
Date: Fri, 14 Jan 2005 01:18:54 -0800 (PST)
From: "Pearly Boatwright"
Subject: love you much and miss you even more
To: "LaDonna Boatwright"
Hi honey how are you? I know you want to hear my voice but you can't well not untill you send me the check card number. Then I'll be able to talk to you. I miss you more each and every single day. I'm glad you and Kristi is getting a house together but why are you hanging around Kristi so much? I thought you didn't like her. How's your tongue is it getting any better? I need to hear your voice I'm about to go crazy around. You're all I think about "over and over" agoin do I think about you. Well have a good time at the clubs and I'll see you in August. Love always your neverending husband
Date: Sat, 15 Jan 2005 01:34:48 -0800 (PST)
From: "Pearly Boatwright"
Subject: Re: I love you more than anything in this world.
To: "LaDonna Boatwright"
Hey Baby how are you? I'm fine just got a slight cold and dealing with the deployment. I got on yesterday but you were not on at the same time I got off early to eat lunch because for some wierd reason I was hungry. LOL I was talking with Lt. CL. Jenseen today. He asked mainly how I was doing and I told him I was mainly waiting for August and he said it was just around the corner. I just want to go home and be with you but first I have to get this deployment over with. Talk to you later and tell Kristi I said Hi. Love you forever and a day Pearley
Date: Sun, 16 Jan 2005 01:23:27 -0800 (PST)
From: "Pearly Boatwright"
Subject: Re: I Love you!!!!!!!!
To: "LaDonna Boatwright"
You are such an angel no one could ever doubt your love.
You are an angel sent down from above.
Seeing you in my thoughts and dreams;
Missing your smell of lavender and creams.
Knowing no one could ever take you away from here;
From where my thoughts and my dreams that here.
Forever in my mind is you and you alone yet;
You are the best thing ever you bet.
Wishing I could have you here to hold to kiss.
To satisfy you with every kiss.
From your heart within I know you love me for me;
Not for money or for fame but just me.
Love you sweetie see you in August.
Date: Sun, 16 Jan 2005 06:24:27 -0800 (PST)
From: "Pearly Boatwright"
Subject: why
To: "LaDonna Boatwright" , "LaDonna Boatwright" <18034631363@mms.suncom.net>, "Cassie" , "Chris" , "CJ" , cynthia.hamiliton@checmail.com, "tiffany ford" , "Harley" , "Jake" , "Jesse Mae" , "Jessie"
, "Patty Lott" , "brain mccormick" , mlott@lex_lib.sc.us
how did this happen to me when ya'll promise to keep tabs on my wife and make sure she doesn't cheat on me? And you LaDonna why did you do it why did you spend the night with another man and still was happy to get a phone call from him? Why when I put my full trust in you and swore I will never leave you why? You said we need to talk yet you haven't even replied to me yet why? Waitin on you to answer!