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[dakyon]

I have started to feel the effects of the increased dosage of Abilify. Energy is up, but so is anxiety and restlessness, especially around mid-morning. I'm taking the lowest dose of Ativan to help with that, but I worry about becoming dependent on it because I'm taking it almost every day

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[queenlyzard]

*Nods* There are multiple parts to dealing with something like depression-- Awareness, Acceptance, Accomodation. And the "serenity prayer," if you will. Some stuff can be changed, some can't. Some stuff is fixed by medication, some isn't.

I went through a long period of life not knowing that there was something wrong with how my brain worked. Prozac gave me the insight that I had options. It had its own problems, so I didn't take it for long, but just having had the experience of not being majorly depressed for a change gave me the ability to realize how many of my problems were just my brain chemistry fucking with me... and to know when I couldn't handle it alone.

I've been on and off various meds for years-- balancing mood issues vs. side effects, etc. Sometimes I'm better off without the meds, sometimes with. It's worth experimentation (and yes, it can be sucky. Some stuff you get used to, some not so much). But I'd definitely talk with your doctor about it before going off anything. Good luck finding other coping mechanisms for the anxiety and stuff, though-- I know some people have had great luck with meditation, etc.

[dakyon]

Thanks for the comments. I know you understand how trying it can be to find that right balance.