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The Feelings of a Hopless Soul

Jun 10, 2003 20:21

Well, since I can't seem to get my feelings out right, I might as well write down as best as I can what I feel here.

Taia, I love you. I love you with everything I am, and everything I'm going to be...You are the light at the end of my tunnel...You're the first place trophy that I get after finally becoming...normal. You are my goal, and you are my love. You are everything to me, and I honestly would sacrifice everything for you. My heart shatters into a million pieces whenever I hear that you're depressed, and I'm utterly crushed when I hear you cry even if I don't show it...My heart aches when we're away from each other, and sings when we're together. I can't go on in life without you. You are half of me, and I cannot stand without you. Without you, I would only be half a person, and therefore wouldn't be able to do anything...I need you, Taia...I need you more than I need anything in this God forsaken world...Screw the world if only I could have just you...I don't care if everyone on the earth dies but you and me, I would still be tremendously happy. Hell, I'd have everything I need to go on: You. You are my food that I eat, you are the air that I breathe, and you are my strength to keep going...You have changed me from what I used to be, and it has been a good and bad change. I have become open, but I have also realized several things in terms of my parents: I am old enough to be free, and they won't allow me my freedom that I crave. I hadn't realized it before I met you...So I was content. I had a small life, coming home each day and checking the net to see what my friends said, going to school and trying to just get by...I had no purpose to go on, yet I droned on. It was colorless and drab...Once I met you, it's like everything was painted in beautiful pastels...The way you touch me, and the way you care for me always sends chills down my spine...God, I hope this sounds better than what I have been saying...I guess I just get nervous when talking like this around you because I'm always afraid I'll screw up. Well, here it is, my true feelings towards you...I hope you understand...

*sigh* Well, I guess I'm going to go lay down and wait for her to come online or something...

~Brandon
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