The liana bullshit.....
well all things were going.....ok.....not perfect but ok cuz obviously we werent planning on getting together..... we talked about that.....and well i still hadnt told him i love him cuz i was scared of his reaction but we both said id probably eventually happen.....and of course me the dreamy girl had to go put her hopes up right then and there.....so liana calls me one day out of the blue....mind u she hates me cuz i "treat michael bad" and "ive taken michael away from his best friends" so shes not talking to me and she made everyone else not talk to me too..... so im surprised to see her number pop up on my phone...... apparently david broke up with her..... according to michael he found her diary and found out she cheated on him.....no surprise.....stupid psycho slut...... w.e so at that time it was kool between her and i..... she started hanging out with me and stuff........ i liked hanging out with laz so much more tho..... then i started thinking and i was sooo afraid of letting laz and liana see each other......for some reason i had a bad feeling about it all and i thought that he would start liking her cuz she is an attractive girl tho she has no ass but w.e. ...... i knew it would eventually happened so one day we all hung out...... we went to the hookah bar..... she knew i liked him....... and of course they started flirting......according to them ..they've always been that way ......since middle school.....well w.e. i was a little bitchy.... we had some bear i believe..... and it was her first beer......shes a cheap date and got tipsy after like a beer and a half..... no biggie..... so liana calls me on sunday like in the middle of the day and asks me if i know whats up with laz? i ask her why.... she tells me she has like 10 missed calls from him on her phone and shes trying to call him but now he doesnt pick up..... so i call laz and he picks up and i tell him to call liana that shes been trying to call him....... a little later i call liana..... she tells me that he passed by and gave her a cute card that he got just thinking of her......... i was surprise and as soon as i hung up the phone tears kept rolling down my cheeks..... 1. he had never called me that much...2. he had never just randomly got something thinking of me ..... the reason it bothered me was cuz we were doing something so special....... it didnt feel special anymore.... i knew what was going to happen ......and unfortunately my worst fear came true...... the bitch slowly starts taking over.....shes hanging out with danny.....my only outlet at that time..... and now she was taking the guy i was falling in love with........ so what can i do..... i cant overkill it and start acting like a selfish bitch............ w.e. so that monday will calls me up to hang out......so he picks me up and we all go to marisa's house.......there laz calls me and asks me whats up...... for some reason i knew that what he really wanted to do was hang out with liana because he hadnt really called me to hang out like that......it was so sudden and different......i was disappointed when he asked me what i was doing and i said i was with will ......hes like ohh that sux i wanted to hang out......and i said i wanted to too but i didnt have a ride and well will called me earlier....... so w.e. we hang up...... later i think it was on wednesday..... the same sort of thing happens........ so i dont end up seeing him........and i wanted too soo bad....this time we were at josh's house and i kept telling will how much i wanted to be with him.....and he told me i had to chill with it..... cuz i was getting a little too pushy............. but i wanted to be with him sooooo bad....... i talk to liana later and she tells me that she has something to tell me......... apparently they went to the diner.....it was laz, danny and liana.... he "confessed" to her that she was the highschool girl that he thought he could never get with..... he said he really liked her and yeah...... they were talking for a long time..... then they went to the movies where she said she told him to sit on the other side of danny...... she said that he kept asking for a kiss .......... when she told me this......my heart broke into five million pieces...... i felt so used...... but it was my own fault...... there was no commitment.....nothing.....so he had every right to do this....... but then why had he asked to make love to me? i thought that meant that he had feelings for me......but apparently liana erased all that........ i felt soo bad..... i wish i would have been there.....and maybe hed have seen how much he liked me better.....but w.e. ok im going to stop now cuz im getting angry writting about this......its upsetting and when i remember about this i cry....so yeah....... i know he loves me now.... and hes amazing so all these stupidities that happened before our relationship are the past.....i love him sooo much...... looking at his picture on my phone makes me happy thinking that maybe hes missing me, thinking of me..... and that i feel at least for sure that he loves me...... i know it...... well getting a little tired....gonna go to sleep now....update more later ^_^
♥ hurtz!
♥ hurtz!