The thoughts in my brain....
Are making me insane. How do i always manage to make everything harder than it should be? Why is it that a simple yes or no question becomes a literal debate in my head between apparently two parties that can't seem to agree on one damn thing? DOes anyone else face these problems?
Usually when I amake a decision I stick with it, but for some reason lately I have been having these debates in my head that would beat out the bush and kerry debates last seen early november. Most everyone on here knows that i had been planning a very big move in my life. Most everyone... those of you that didn't, do now.
Everyone who knows me at least has always known that I have wanted to move to California since I was like this tall... ok when I was 6. Now I have no commitments that are going to tie me down to Kentucky and I can't make up my damn mind. I want to move to Cali do bad, so why can't I? Apparently I do have too much to tie me down in Kentucky. You would think once I graduated school and got my license that I wouldn't be tied down. EVen the releasing of Randy should have helped influence my decision. Truth is all of that did. The one thing that I hadand no longer have at the time should have as well been a big factor in my decision.
Too bad that it is a big portion of this. Aside from me wanting this practically my whole life, the fact is I know what it looks like. John packs up, leaving me and all his friends behind, to move to the great state of California. He did something in a heartbeat that I have wanted to do forever. Now here I am, debating whether or not it is ok for me to do the same thing. If I did decide to do this, it wouldn't have anything to do with him.
I mean look at it this way, I am in Cali right now, doesn't look like i am going to see John or even hear from him. The only method of conversation we have had since he left was two or three hot boxes in mojo, no phone calls or anything started by him. I don't even know his new number. Yay.
So as you can see, he has pretty much nothing to do with me or my decision. I miss him but that is about it.
I know no one can make up my mind for me, but how am I supposed to do this? I feel like I can't even take care of myself, but I know I am strong and I know I can. I will let you guysk now when I have made up my mind fully. Right now nothing in my head points any which direction other than down.
You are 87% Scorpio
How much do you match your zodiac sign?
Usually when I amake a decision I stick with it, but for some reason lately I have been having these debates in my head that would beat out the bush and kerry debates last seen early november. Most everyone on here knows that i had been planning a very big move in my life. Most everyone... those of you that didn't, do now.
Everyone who knows me at least has always known that I have wanted to move to California since I was like this tall... ok when I was 6. Now I have no commitments that are going to tie me down to Kentucky and I can't make up my damn mind. I want to move to Cali do bad, so why can't I? Apparently I do have too much to tie me down in Kentucky. You would think once I graduated school and got my license that I wouldn't be tied down. EVen the releasing of Randy should have helped influence my decision. Truth is all of that did. The one thing that I hadand no longer have at the time should have as well been a big factor in my decision.
Too bad that it is a big portion of this. Aside from me wanting this practically my whole life, the fact is I know what it looks like. John packs up, leaving me and all his friends behind, to move to the great state of California. He did something in a heartbeat that I have wanted to do forever. Now here I am, debating whether or not it is ok for me to do the same thing. If I did decide to do this, it wouldn't have anything to do with him.
I mean look at it this way, I am in Cali right now, doesn't look like i am going to see John or even hear from him. The only method of conversation we have had since he left was two or three hot boxes in mojo, no phone calls or anything started by him. I don't even know his new number. Yay.
So as you can see, he has pretty much nothing to do with me or my decision. I miss him but that is about it.
I know no one can make up my mind for me, but how am I supposed to do this? I feel like I can't even take care of myself, but I know I am strong and I know I can. I will let you guysk now when I have made up my mind fully. Right now nothing in my head points any which direction other than down.
You are 87% Scorpio
How much do you match your zodiac sign?