silence is unbroken
I have the stomach bug that everyone in Kentucky is getting. I am annoyed. I thought I was finally doing great in school. I hadn't missed a day in 3 weeks, and then I get this damn bug. They sent me home yesterday because I stumbled down the stairs and had to hold on to the wall to walk because I was so dizzy. I found out how many hours I had and it sudeen;y wasn't so hard to go anymore... now here I am stuck on my butt wihing I was at school taking clients because that is what I need to do to graduate.
This week has been hell to me. A lot of things have happened and I am really not at liberty to talk about on here because I know I will start crying. I don't know where my life is taking me right now. I am so confused right now that I don't know what to do with myself. I have no outlet for this pain anymore that I seem to be resorting back to this childish bullshit known as livejournal which makes me look like a pathetic piece of shit. I am pouring my heart out to a bunch of imaginary people. I don't think anyone gets me anymore. I am no longer the Amie that I used to be and no one seems to understand that about me right now.
I love all of my friends and wish we were still as close as were years ago, but things have stopped that now. Everyone has an excuse. Work, school, boyfriend, girlfriend, the list goes on and on and never ends. Why do we make excuses to take time away from our friends when we haven't seen them for awhile? I mean comeon, it took a death in the once close family to get even some of us together. And even then the group wasn't whole. Why do we do this to ourselves? I miss all of you and I am kinda tired of the petty reasons we have to not all be together at once.
I am tryi8ng to make myself sound perfect because everyone knows I am not. I just wish that everything could go back to the way things were with us. I think we all need to get together and talk about what is driving us apart. Because I for one cannot take this any longer. We all have problems and maybe getting together on one day and no holds barred talking. I think we are old enough to be able to say whatis on our minds no matter how much it hurts... because not being friends could hurt so much more. Does anyone agree with me? If you do, and you know who I am talking to, please call me and let's figure out a day that this would be good for ALL of us!
This week has been hell to me. A lot of things have happened and I am really not at liberty to talk about on here because I know I will start crying. I don't know where my life is taking me right now. I am so confused right now that I don't know what to do with myself. I have no outlet for this pain anymore that I seem to be resorting back to this childish bullshit known as livejournal which makes me look like a pathetic piece of shit. I am pouring my heart out to a bunch of imaginary people. I don't think anyone gets me anymore. I am no longer the Amie that I used to be and no one seems to understand that about me right now.
I love all of my friends and wish we were still as close as were years ago, but things have stopped that now. Everyone has an excuse. Work, school, boyfriend, girlfriend, the list goes on and on and never ends. Why do we make excuses to take time away from our friends when we haven't seen them for awhile? I mean comeon, it took a death in the once close family to get even some of us together. And even then the group wasn't whole. Why do we do this to ourselves? I miss all of you and I am kinda tired of the petty reasons we have to not all be together at once.
I am tryi8ng to make myself sound perfect because everyone knows I am not. I just wish that everything could go back to the way things were with us. I think we all need to get together and talk about what is driving us apart. Because I for one cannot take this any longer. We all have problems and maybe getting together on one day and no holds barred talking. I think we are old enough to be able to say whatis on our minds no matter how much it hurts... because not being friends could hurt so much more. Does anyone agree with me? If you do, and you know who I am talking to, please call me and let's figure out a day that this would be good for ALL of us!