Today is Tuesday...
Ok..
So real quick:
Lindsay and I are not friends right now. I really don't want things to be like this but there is nothing I can do. She hasn't called, texted, or made plans with me in almost 2 months. Whenever I call her she never calls back or texts like HOURS later and gives me some lame ass excuse. She actually has said to me not to blame her for liking to spend time with Bill. I'm not blaming her- I think I'm fucking jealous of all the time she gives to him when I get nothing!
She only has time for me when Bill is too busy or she can't make it to New Hope.
This is not a friendship.
Maybe I have been a bit too depended on her in the past but not now. Not right now. It's summer- we're such fun in the summmer. Or we used to be. I don't get along well with girls and do not make friends easily so I don't know what I'm going to do in terms of finding a new play-friend.
Speaking of mean girls: Jesse's gf is such a bitch! Yeah- we dated but for fuck's sake- it was 9 years ago! I'm serious- we broke up in like 1999! And have been BFF since then! Come on!
I keep getting scared that something is wrong with me. I really do not get along with any of my close friends significant others. Jamie x Matt, Jesse x Hanna, Lindsay x Bill. We're all getting to the age of marriage and I don't want to be left out of their lives for stupid reasons. I don't know what to do or what is wrong with me.
Maybe it's nothing- maybe it's them? I do have really intense relationships with my friends.
I don't know. Time to do more work tho.