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I feel so sick to my stomach when i think of how things could be different, not that i want things to be different but...what if they were. i know they would be terrible and exactly the same as they were last year. I am so lonely and depressed. Its been a while since I felt this way I know it has to do with my cycle and all this stress, but these situations are noooo reason to feel the way i feel. Last week I did sooo good, I was happy and productive, and this week i just want to I dont know, sleep I guess but for a while, at least until edgar gets home. i try to do everything the books say but I just dont want to leave the house, and i dont want to stay there either.
On a more happy note, we got cable today and NFL ticket, I dont know what it is really but i know that edgar would probbaly like it and we got a good deal, i think. Today at the library there were a bunch of kids(little)trick or treating...soo cute. Im planning a dinner on friday for when edgar gets home, its mostly cuban food, which i have never attempted to make and only ate once but i guess we will see how it goes...its keeping my mind off of things which is good.
and if anyone is up at 3 in the morning or whatever, i probably am too since its only 12 here. i hate that when i need to talk to people, everyone is probably sleeping.
and
3070 S. Nellis Blvd.
Apt. 1006
Las Vegas, Nevada, 89121
pleease write..ill write back!
On a more happy note, we got cable today and NFL ticket, I dont know what it is really but i know that edgar would probbaly like it and we got a good deal, i think. Today at the library there were a bunch of kids(little)trick or treating...soo cute. Im planning a dinner on friday for when edgar gets home, its mostly cuban food, which i have never attempted to make and only ate once but i guess we will see how it goes...its keeping my mind off of things which is good.
and if anyone is up at 3 in the morning or whatever, i probably am too since its only 12 here. i hate that when i need to talk to people, everyone is probably sleeping.
and
3070 S. Nellis Blvd.
Apt. 1006
Las Vegas, Nevada, 89121
pleease write..ill write back!