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I find myself not wanting to get out of bed sometimes. I do eventually, but by the time 11am rolls around.
I am hesitant to walk into lecture if the class size is 100+ people.
I am sad sometimes, but I don't think I'm nearly as depressed as some people. Everyone gets sad.. it's all in how you handle it.. and I don't think I've passed the point where I can't deal with it on my own.
When I am taking a test, I sometimes have to reread the question 4-5 times because I can't concentrate on what it's asking. If someone coughs or their nose is sniffly, I break whatever little concentration I had and am left wondering.. are they sick? How close are they to me? If the teacher/TA are walking around, I can't concentrate on the test.
I have tried turning on music, sitting quietly, turning on TV, going into the library to study.. I can give myself about 3 minutes without feeling like I need to do something else.
I can't finish projects, really.
I am walking to write something down on my to-do list, and four other things I need to be doing/thinking pop up in my head and my mind goes blank.
I have thoughts running through my head all day, and making lists is the only way to organize my life. If I don't have a to-do list or something organized to go off of, I have a freak-out. I guess everyone's mind has thoughts all the time, it's just all in how they're put into order and aligned correctly.
I don't fully agree with prescribing anyone medication.. and I feel like there are a million things you can do instead of becoming addicted to prescription medicine.. but in this case, I have tried everything. I have done online screenings for years, talked to my high school counselor, exercised regularly, eaten healthier, and sat down in a library to just study. It hasn't worked. I feel like it's actually getting worse, the more situations I'm thrown into and expected to overcome. My family has a bad habit of writing things off. Oh, you have the flu? Take some ibuprofen and rest. Oh, you're sad? Go on a walk in the sunshine and you'll feel fine. You like to eat a lot? Well, just stop!
Perhaps I'm being a little unfair, but that's the impression I've always gotten. Especially from Chigger, my mom, and sister.
So I made an appointment at the mental health clinic at UTA to talk with a psychologist next week. We'll see. I think I really need this.
I am hesitant to walk into lecture if the class size is 100+ people.
I am sad sometimes, but I don't think I'm nearly as depressed as some people. Everyone gets sad.. it's all in how you handle it.. and I don't think I've passed the point where I can't deal with it on my own.
When I am taking a test, I sometimes have to reread the question 4-5 times because I can't concentrate on what it's asking. If someone coughs or their nose is sniffly, I break whatever little concentration I had and am left wondering.. are they sick? How close are they to me? If the teacher/TA are walking around, I can't concentrate on the test.
I have tried turning on music, sitting quietly, turning on TV, going into the library to study.. I can give myself about 3 minutes without feeling like I need to do something else.
I can't finish projects, really.
I am walking to write something down on my to-do list, and four other things I need to be doing/thinking pop up in my head and my mind goes blank.
I have thoughts running through my head all day, and making lists is the only way to organize my life. If I don't have a to-do list or something organized to go off of, I have a freak-out. I guess everyone's mind has thoughts all the time, it's just all in how they're put into order and aligned correctly.
I don't fully agree with prescribing anyone medication.. and I feel like there are a million things you can do instead of becoming addicted to prescription medicine.. but in this case, I have tried everything. I have done online screenings for years, talked to my high school counselor, exercised regularly, eaten healthier, and sat down in a library to just study. It hasn't worked. I feel like it's actually getting worse, the more situations I'm thrown into and expected to overcome. My family has a bad habit of writing things off. Oh, you have the flu? Take some ibuprofen and rest. Oh, you're sad? Go on a walk in the sunshine and you'll feel fine. You like to eat a lot? Well, just stop!
Perhaps I'm being a little unfair, but that's the impression I've always gotten. Especially from Chigger, my mom, and sister.
So I made an appointment at the mental health clinic at UTA to talk with a psychologist next week. We'll see. I think I really need this.