I CAN DO THIS
I had a family function today, my older brother's annual backwoods BBQ in Bayville. LOL. Having "removed" myself and seeing things through different eyes was interesting. I only stayed for a couple of hours, but in that couple of hours I managed to kiss my mom (twice!) and spend a buttload of time with my niece Hailey who is just the best thing that probably will ever happen to me (unless I adopt of course). She is finally starting to talk and although she hates her photo taken I was the ONLY person who managed to snag a photo with her. It was pretty awesome. Anyway I am happy with the direction things seem to be going in. I am happy to be kind of having this out of body experience right now. I also convinced my aunt to let me do the food for my cousin's 21st birthday in 2 weeks for a deep discount, of course, but I really need people to see that I CAN DO THIS. I am happy too. It's pretty awesome.