Hectic work schedule
I started summer school today. Wow, talk about the blind leading the blind. No books, or any materials for the first hour. So I winged it. Then I ransacked another teacher's classroom for the books and other stuff I needed. It was a long day but I got through it.
I went to the beach last Sunday with my son and my ex-husband. We agreed that we should do things together as a "family" for our son's sake. We get along fine as long as we don't talk about anything beyond school, Max, video games, music, films, or art. The thing is that's the way our entire marriage was for ten years. He's completely emotionally detached unable to see things from anyone else's point of view. I look back on it all now and I can't believe we were together for so long. It was a lifetime and a lifetime ago. I don't hate him, but sometimes I find it so hard to be around him for long.
Anyways the beach was great. I know Galveston beaches are the nicest or cleanest, but I still like going. I like being in the water. I walked out as far as I dared. I kept feeling a pull to go farther, to just swim out until my strength was gone and I let the waves either wash me out to the Gulf or back onto the shore. A strange thing comes over me at the beach. All four elements are present; the heat and fire from the sun, water from the sea, air all around, and sandy earth. And then the most important element of all, spirit. Mine, my son's, everybody's. Standing on the beach I can actually see the earth as round. I see the curves not flat sky or flat ground. It's beautiful. I lay directly on the sand half in the water. No towels under me. I like to feel the raw earth on my skin, in my hair, the water flowing over my body, the heat from the sun above, and the salty air filling my lungs. I know there is a God who set all this beatiful existence into motion. And I am thankful and happy to be alive. It was a great summer day.
I went to the beach last Sunday with my son and my ex-husband. We agreed that we should do things together as a "family" for our son's sake. We get along fine as long as we don't talk about anything beyond school, Max, video games, music, films, or art. The thing is that's the way our entire marriage was for ten years. He's completely emotionally detached unable to see things from anyone else's point of view. I look back on it all now and I can't believe we were together for so long. It was a lifetime and a lifetime ago. I don't hate him, but sometimes I find it so hard to be around him for long.
Anyways the beach was great. I know Galveston beaches are the nicest or cleanest, but I still like going. I like being in the water. I walked out as far as I dared. I kept feeling a pull to go farther, to just swim out until my strength was gone and I let the waves either wash me out to the Gulf or back onto the shore. A strange thing comes over me at the beach. All four elements are present; the heat and fire from the sun, water from the sea, air all around, and sandy earth. And then the most important element of all, spirit. Mine, my son's, everybody's. Standing on the beach I can actually see the earth as round. I see the curves not flat sky or flat ground. It's beautiful. I lay directly on the sand half in the water. No towels under me. I like to feel the raw earth on my skin, in my hair, the water flowing over my body, the heat from the sun above, and the salty air filling my lungs. I know there is a God who set all this beatiful existence into motion. And I am thankful and happy to be alive. It was a great summer day.