Patience.

I've never considered myself a patient man, though in practice I suppose I've become one out of necessity. Playing the long game seems to hold greater reward. I don't like it by any measure whatsoever, but it is a necessity as said. I don't build up my hopes as time passes, which seems unusual. My hopes remain the same, set in a point of ( Read more... )

You get a dog with good muscles and strong teeth, you train it up to be a killer-winner pit dog that wins every fight it's ever in and loves every second of it. Gets to be too good, the mere scent of blood throwing it into joyful rage until there's nothing left alive.

You take something like that out of the pits, put it in normal everyday life, ( Read more... )

I fail to exactly comprehend what I want, specifically, out of life. The rest of the world seems to have these long-term goals. I have much ambition, but not in a long-term goal way, more in an ongoing pursuit of happiness and perfection. My actions are definite and bold but without planning, and as such I tend to be quite erratic. I've been told I ( Read more... )

I am a proud and self-confessed hedonist. I can't think of ever wanting to be anything else. While, of course, there are other folks who may take more substances in greater quantities than I do, it is wise to point out that I've probably done most of those substances in the past, many far to excess, and as such I've had my whole share at once and ( Read more... )

Sex is an odd activity. A physical activity which is supposed to have a huge emotional investment in it. Releaser of stress and endorphins, raiser of metabolism and heartrate, a good general cardio workout. And yet there's such a messy amount of tangles to it. There's the other person to consider, and intimacy boundaries, fetish/kink boundaries, ( Read more... )

We found an exercise bike by the side of the road, perfectly functional so we took it home. I just put new batteries in the information screen and now it works just like new. Why do people throw these things out?

I have it pointed in the general direction of the TV so I can jump on for a little exercise when I'd otherwise be sitting there bored. ( Read more... )

I ponder on the subject of vampires often, more often than I should, for reasons that would surprise no one. This evening, amongst other things, I let my mind toss over the sensual element of my vampire-related dreams, examining them carefully with delicate touches like an entomologist with a wonderfully delicate specimen.

I noticed my first ( Read more... )

...Are deceiving.

An old adage. Yet so many seem to forget this; it is indeed frustrating.

I am nearly nothing like what my packaging would have you believe. And often, with the exception of very few lucky people, my personality is either carefully tailored to most fit each situation, or entirely artificial to cover my own personal flaws and fears. ( Read more... )

It has been said that in life we strive for happiness and contentment. I'm not sure who by, but I know I have heard it before from many sources.

I can tell you all with absolutely precise certainty that this is a complete lie.

Growing up with nothing will teach you this better than any words on a page or screen ever could. It is not just a lie, but a ( Read more... )