Going through the motions
It’s that time of the year again, where everyone is preparing for another fun filled inspiring, adventurous time at school but sadly I won’t be joining them. And as you can imagine I’m rather bummed out about it but as the saying goes, when life gives you melon, make lemonade (which is precisely what I’m doing). I have been in school/college for about a year and half and the course that I’m taking requires three years for completion. I can handle the work but, the financial aspect has proven to be a major challenge especially when it’s just my family and I who are fitting the bill. I appreciate their help (mother/father) immensely but it weighs on my mind... in heart and I just couldn’t look past it this time. They’re struggling with the bills and no matter how much they tried to hide it from me, it was noticeable so despite their antagonizing/relentless protests, I have decided to take this semester off.
The pros (no student loans to worry about, interests and whatnots) cons (I’m missing out and setting myself back). It was very hard to study, give a hundred percent when I had so many worries on my mind. I could not fully enjoy what I was learning and I felt even worse at home with my folks. Sometimes, it felt as though I was on the verge of a complete mental breakdown so I had to put things into perspective and had a rather long drawn out conversation with my parents about taking this time off. I think I made the right decision but I can’t help feeling down when I see my friends all hyped up and ready to get back while I will remain here/home, left behind, working. But I feel that taking a break and working while saving (as much as I can) will improve my mental state and environment as oppose to the hindrance I felt when my folks were helping (while strulling). Though they never once complained, never, and I’m really thankful for that.
The pros (no student loans to worry about, interests and whatnots) cons (I’m missing out and setting myself back). It was very hard to study, give a hundred percent when I had so many worries on my mind. I could not fully enjoy what I was learning and I felt even worse at home with my folks. Sometimes, it felt as though I was on the verge of a complete mental breakdown so I had to put things into perspective and had a rather long drawn out conversation with my parents about taking this time off. I think I made the right decision but I can’t help feeling down when I see my friends all hyped up and ready to get back while I will remain here/home, left behind, working. But I feel that taking a break and working while saving (as much as I can) will improve my mental state and environment as oppose to the hindrance I felt when my folks were helping (while strulling). Though they never once complained, never, and I’m really thankful for that.