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i haven't worked for three months. it's getting to that point where it's not really a good time anymore. i really don't know what to do with myself. i've been trying to paint but i've been uninspired lately. i keep retouching the same paintings. will they ever be finished? maybe i should just move on. there's nothing really happening here. nothing i can find at least. i'd rather be in berlin. i have this preconseption that there are things happening there. maybe it's no better than here. i'm content here. i'm not sad. i just want some stuff to happen. some house parties or something. it's just not like it used to be when i was at oca. i think i need a show. something to work towards.