work? ugh!
i'm absolutely board with my life at this point. I’m working a lot to try to make a career for myself but really it’s killing me. All my creativity is seeping away from me. I work long hours, mostly by myself, alone. Or when I am with people they’re the wrong kinds of people. People I would never be friends with. The kind of people who live “normal” lives. Who would never go off to explore something different. Who would never quit their jobs and leave the country. Who have closed their minds to different ways of thinking. I’m slowly becoming one of them and I hate it. The only thing that saves me these days is fucking. It takes me away from all this bullshit. But since I work all the time, I don’t have any time to meet people. Well, even if I did, I’m really bad at it. I’m shy and can’t approach people. I’m not in school, which makes it all harder. The people I am friends with are eclectic in what they know, as am I. When I have time off, there is a lot of it. Right now I have time off. I’m totally board, and not excited about any new prospects.