Bits & Pieces...
Things are feeling pretty ok right now :)
- Yesterday after work I met for a drink with t-pot. We hadn't seen each other for several months, and it was really funny to look at each other and just have to say "YOU LOOK GREAT!"
At our last meeting, we both were discouraged, sad and pessimistic. I had just decided to refrain from continuing to obsess over Paolo, he was going through a really depressive phase too.. practically we asserted to each other for a few hours that Love just wasn't going to happen and work out for people like us, that we maybe ask too much, whatever.
And now he is living the most wonderful love story, and I have realized my dream of two years.. both our faces just shone and gleamed while we were updating each other on the wondrous details :) ! I am so happy for him, he really deserves it, and from what I understand, his beloved is a wonderful person too! I wish you both all the best for the future!!! - My "de-cluttering" work goes on.. slowly because I haven't been at home much, but steadily. What makes me happy is the fact that even if all the things I have to do still loom over my head like a gigantic tower ready to crash on me, I am much more motivated and energic in tackling it than ever before.. now that I have divided it into small units which CAN be done every day, I even look nearly forward to the "task of the day", and not only that, I also catch myself at using every free moment just walking around the place and collecting this and that piece, either throwing it away or putting it into its place. The amount of clutter I have been amassing is truly incredible.. and I am only on day 4 of 42 (I have individuated 4 more hot spots, oh yeah..). But now, I really feel like I CAN DO IT!!
- Yesterday evening I caved in and took a sleeping pill.. even if I was dead tired from work, walking around and talking, and de-cluttering, I had seen the nights before that this was not enough.. I would just sleep for 2-3 hours soundly, and then wake up and not be able to fall asleep again. I needed to break that cycle.. and I did!! I usually hate the fuzziness of tranquilizers, but this stuff (Etizolam) is less heavy than valium and company. Thanks mauina :))! After an hour or so I felt pleasantly sleepy and calm, like after a beer or two, but without the spinning head. I went to sleep around midnight, and woke up this morning at 7.30 very relaxed and feeling well.. no drowsiness, no heaviness. Usually one night of good sleep is all it takes to get me back into my normal rhytm, and I already feel a lot less nervous and jumpy today! Just as well, since in late afternoon I have a lesson with Andrea, one of the last before he goes away on holiday, and I sure want to get the most out of it!
I guess that's enough for the moment.. back to work.. I have been procrastinating a bit and know that will come back to hit me on the head powerfully, but at the moment it still is manageable :)