Austin and Home!
Well our trip was spectacular. I had lots of fun. I met my moms boyfriend and he's not a bad guy. He is kind of annoying but he makes her happy so I'm ok with it. The trip was great. Ashley and Dana are great traveling companions. We had lots of fun making stops along the way. Each trip took about 8 hours (instead of the usual 5-6) because of our stops.
I put photos on Facebook so I don't feel like uploading them here.
I got to talk to my mom about my dad. She showed me the pictures. It was sad. He was all bruised and covered in makeup. Plus his face looked fat from laying down on the pillow. The coffin had pictures of us in it and letters all the kids wrote for him. I saw his flag and the guest book from the funeral. The guest book was more like a scrapbook. It had the songs they sang, the prayers said etc. It also had our signatures in it. For some reason it was creepy to see my childish scrawl.
I cried a little, she got uncomfortable because she upset me and then she cried some too.
I took a bunch of papers home with me and have learned a lot. I will write about what I have learned when I finish with the papers.
Ashley was in love with my dog. I was sad though. Lance was so sad looking. His face had no spark in it anymore. His hips hurt him so much he just is uncomfortable. I told my mom she needs to put him down this month. He is in pain and uncomfortable and sad. I don't want him to suffer. I told her its almost time for Tapanga too. She is hurting all the time now. (She has a busted knee tendon, and a metabolic issue).
In other news I got a bike! my brother wasn't using his so he let me have it. Dana and I took our first bike ride today. We are so much closer to the park than we thought! We also picked out where we want to have our ceremony/reception and even where we want to take photos. It is going to be pretty. I am excited.
School is over for two weeks. I am glad we made it. It sucked but its good for me. We got to take a nap together today which was so nice! I missed it. I miss spending so much time with her.
Today I had a low point (I'm not reaching for sympathy, just commenting) I kind of lost my faith in myself and what I'm doing. I just have the traits that I dislike about myself and I want so badly to be good at what I want to do but sometimes I feel like it wont happen is I still have these hang ups. OS I talked to Dana about it and she made me feel better. I think I just need to tone them down and work on it. It will suck and cause me anxiety and discomfort but it will be worth it.
I don't know what else to say.
What's the worst that could happen?
Out.
I put photos on Facebook so I don't feel like uploading them here.
I got to talk to my mom about my dad. She showed me the pictures. It was sad. He was all bruised and covered in makeup. Plus his face looked fat from laying down on the pillow. The coffin had pictures of us in it and letters all the kids wrote for him. I saw his flag and the guest book from the funeral. The guest book was more like a scrapbook. It had the songs they sang, the prayers said etc. It also had our signatures in it. For some reason it was creepy to see my childish scrawl.
I cried a little, she got uncomfortable because she upset me and then she cried some too.
I took a bunch of papers home with me and have learned a lot. I will write about what I have learned when I finish with the papers.
Ashley was in love with my dog. I was sad though. Lance was so sad looking. His face had no spark in it anymore. His hips hurt him so much he just is uncomfortable. I told my mom she needs to put him down this month. He is in pain and uncomfortable and sad. I don't want him to suffer. I told her its almost time for Tapanga too. She is hurting all the time now. (She has a busted knee tendon, and a metabolic issue).
In other news I got a bike! my brother wasn't using his so he let me have it. Dana and I took our first bike ride today. We are so much closer to the park than we thought! We also picked out where we want to have our ceremony/reception and even where we want to take photos. It is going to be pretty. I am excited.
School is over for two weeks. I am glad we made it. It sucked but its good for me. We got to take a nap together today which was so nice! I missed it. I miss spending so much time with her.
Today I had a low point (I'm not reaching for sympathy, just commenting) I kind of lost my faith in myself and what I'm doing. I just have the traits that I dislike about myself and I want so badly to be good at what I want to do but sometimes I feel like it wont happen is I still have these hang ups. OS I talked to Dana about it and she made me feel better. I think I just need to tone them down and work on it. It will suck and cause me anxiety and discomfort but it will be worth it.
I don't know what else to say.
What's the worst that could happen?
Out.